1 00:00:02,603 --> 00:00:07,373 Dr. Herman: I don't like questions without any answers, 2 00:00:07,375 --> 00:00:10,042 like "where do we go when we die?" 3 00:00:10,044 --> 00:00:13,045 I mean, I know what happens physiologically speaking, 4 00:00:13,047 --> 00:00:15,047 but beyond that, what really happens? 5 00:00:15,049 --> 00:00:16,615 Anything? 6 00:00:16,616 --> 00:00:18,182 That's what you start asking yourself 7 00:00:18,185 --> 00:00:19,752 when you live on a clock. 8 00:00:19,754 --> 00:00:22,755 All these questions without any answers... 9 00:00:22,757 --> 00:00:25,257 They'll drive you nuts. 10 00:00:25,259 --> 00:00:27,426 That's why I like what I do... 11 00:00:27,428 --> 00:00:29,728 Fixing babies, birthing babies. 12 00:00:29,730 --> 00:00:32,231 No ambiguity there, no questions, 13 00:00:32,233 --> 00:00:33,716 just answers... 14 00:00:33,717 --> 00:00:35,200 Clear, precise, obvious answers. 15 00:00:35,202 --> 00:00:38,303 And life... Beautiful new life. 16 00:00:38,305 --> 00:00:39,371 Hope for the future. 17 00:00:39,373 --> 00:00:40,773 God, I miss that. 18 00:00:40,775 --> 00:00:41,807 [ Knock on door ] 19 00:00:41,809 --> 00:00:43,475 Morning! 20 00:00:43,477 --> 00:00:46,645 Robbins, are you ever not chirpy? 21 00:00:46,647 --> 00:00:47,713 Does that ever happen? 22 00:00:47,715 --> 00:00:49,815 Are you ever not snarky? 23 00:00:49,817 --> 00:00:51,600 Also, you snore. 24 00:00:51,601 --> 00:00:53,384 I-I can't crash here again tonight without earplugs. 25 00:00:53,387 --> 00:00:55,320 Okay, so, we have seven cases today. 26 00:00:55,322 --> 00:00:56,789 The first one is in two hours. 27 00:00:56,791 --> 00:00:58,757 Also, it's Friday, so that's mri day. 28 00:00:58,759 --> 00:01:01,026 You know the drill. 29 00:01:01,027 --> 00:01:03,294 47 minutes of my very limited life-span wasted. 30 00:01:03,297 --> 00:01:05,664 Mm, come on, come on. 31 00:01:05,666 --> 00:01:06,732 God! I'm coming. 32 00:01:06,734 --> 00:01:09,101 Stop chirping. Stop snarking. 33 00:01:09,103 --> 00:01:12,071 Whew! After this, we've got the diaphragmatic hernia. Baby's 27 weeks. 34 00:01:12,073 --> 00:01:14,373 We'll do a, um, tracheal balloon occlusion... [ Sighs ] Hey. 35 00:01:14,375 --> 00:01:17,309 Figured you could use this... Which should, if we're lucky, ensure the blood... 36 00:01:17,311 --> 00:01:20,279 before the big lecture. Oh, um, thanks. 37 00:01:20,281 --> 00:01:21,747 Thank you. 38 00:01:21,749 --> 00:01:24,183 Um, they already scheduled 39 00:01:24,185 --> 00:01:26,585 a follow-up procedure on the baby, as well. 40 00:01:26,587 --> 00:01:29,388 [ Continues speaking indistinctly ] You're cultivating quite a bit of buzz, you know? 41 00:01:29,390 --> 00:01:31,123 Really? Mm-hmm. 42 00:01:31,125 --> 00:01:33,792 I heard from two hospitals wanting us to record your talk. 43 00:01:33,794 --> 00:01:36,829 [ Sighs ] 44 00:01:36,831 --> 00:01:39,131 but we won't be too close to the due date. 45 00:01:39,133 --> 00:01:40,732 And if... I have a lot on my plate right now, 46 00:01:40,734 --> 00:01:43,869 just with, uh, Herman and her tumor. 47 00:01:43,871 --> 00:01:45,437 Uh, her surgery. 48 00:01:45,439 --> 00:01:48,307 I really need to focus... 49 00:01:48,309 --> 00:01:49,508 On the tumor. 50 00:01:49,510 --> 00:01:53,178 Don't need any distractions, and you're... 51 00:01:53,180 --> 00:01:55,180 Very hard to ignore. 52 00:01:55,182 --> 00:01:56,715 Hey, I ju... It was just coffee. 53 00:01:56,717 --> 00:01:58,517 No, I-I so appreciate the coffee. 54 00:01:58,519 --> 00:02:01,153 Uh, I was just getting some coffee for myself, and... 55 00:02:01,155 --> 00:02:02,354 It's good coffee. It... 56 00:02:02,356 --> 00:02:03,856 [ chuckles ] It's great coffee. 57 00:02:03,858 --> 00:02:04,890 I-I, uh... I can... 58 00:02:04,892 --> 00:02:06,859 I can just get my own if... if you... 59 00:02:06,861 --> 00:02:09,628 I mean, you can get your own so easily. [ Chuckles ] 60 00:02:09,630 --> 00:02:11,497 I-I don't want to get my own coffee. I... [ Sighs ] 61 00:02:11,499 --> 00:02:14,766 I mean [Chuckles] I do. I can. I will. 62 00:02:14,768 --> 00:02:17,202 I... I can get my own coffee all day long. I just... 63 00:02:17,204 --> 00:02:18,904 Owen. [ Sighs ] 64 00:02:19,907 --> 00:02:22,808 Thank you for bringing me the coffee. 65 00:02:22,810 --> 00:02:25,477 I really like it. 66 00:02:25,479 --> 00:02:27,446 [ Chuckles ] 67 00:02:27,448 --> 00:02:28,547 Uh, you're welcome. 68 00:02:28,549 --> 00:02:31,350 So, how's my head? 69 00:02:31,352 --> 00:02:33,819 The tumor seems stable. 70 00:02:33,821 --> 00:02:35,587 I was worried about the inferomedial margin, 71 00:02:35,589 --> 00:02:37,823 but the good news is, there's no sign of growth. 72 00:02:37,825 --> 00:02:39,825 It hasn't invaded the optic nerve yet. 73 00:02:39,827 --> 00:02:41,460 Well, how long till it does? 74 00:02:41,462 --> 00:02:43,729 I need a number, Shepherd. I have things to plan. 75 00:02:43,731 --> 00:02:45,697 About six weeks... Maybe eight 76 00:02:45,699 --> 00:02:47,466 if you go in for the localized radiation treatments 77 00:02:47,468 --> 00:02:48,600 I've prescribed for you. 78 00:02:48,602 --> 00:02:50,269 I'd like for those to start today. 79 00:02:50,271 --> 00:02:51,337 No, no, no, no. 80 00:02:51,338 --> 00:02:52,404 I tried that. Hated it. 81 00:02:52,406 --> 00:02:54,506 Doctor's orders. It is our best chance 82 00:02:54,508 --> 00:02:56,775 to shrink the part of the tumor on your optic chiasm. 83 00:02:56,777 --> 00:02:58,343 Oh, crap. Miranda: Glenda castillo! 84 00:02:58,345 --> 00:02:59,511 We're headed to surgery, Dr. Bailey. 85 00:02:59,513 --> 00:03:00,646 No time to talk. 86 00:03:00,648 --> 00:03:01,780 But you haven't given me an answer. 87 00:03:01,782 --> 00:03:03,182 Actually, I have. It was no. 88 00:03:03,183 --> 00:03:04,583 But you haven't given me the right answer. 89 00:03:04,585 --> 00:03:05,817 You could at least meet with her. 90 00:03:05,819 --> 00:03:07,186 I've seen the case, okay? 91 00:03:07,188 --> 00:03:08,721 I-I'm sorry, 92 00:03:08,722 --> 00:03:10,255 but I'm working on a very limited time frame 93 00:03:10,257 --> 00:03:13,325 with a very specific list of surgeries to teach Robbins, 94 00:03:13,327 --> 00:03:14,760 and glenda castillo isn't one of them. 95 00:03:14,762 --> 00:03:17,529 Okay, well, as a personal favor to me, just me per... 96 00:03:17,531 --> 00:03:19,665 I have no time to make it personal. 97 00:03:19,667 --> 00:03:20,933 It's a no. I'm sorry. 98 00:03:20,935 --> 00:03:22,701 I'll get you some names... Good people. 99 00:03:22,703 --> 00:03:23,969 She can see one of them. 100 00:03:25,839 --> 00:03:27,806 Um, sorry. 101 00:03:32,846 --> 00:03:34,913 [ Monitor beeping ] 102 00:03:43,524 --> 00:03:45,958 Three down, all these to go. 103 00:03:45,960 --> 00:03:47,893 Arizona: We've got four months' worth of surgeries up here. 104 00:03:47,895 --> 00:03:50,829 I mean, how are we gonna get four months of surgeries done in eight weeks? 105 00:03:50,831 --> 00:03:52,931 We just do, I suppose. 106 00:03:52,933 --> 00:03:54,700 You'll do the next one yourself. I'll watch. 107 00:03:54,702 --> 00:03:55,702 What? 108 00:03:55,703 --> 00:03:56,802 No. No, thank you. 109 00:03:56,804 --> 00:03:58,170 I appreciate the vote of confidence, 110 00:03:58,171 --> 00:03:59,537 but I'm not even actually sure that I know how... 111 00:03:59,540 --> 00:04:01,306 I need to see what you've learned, 112 00:04:01,308 --> 00:04:03,408 what you can and can't do on your own 113 00:04:03,410 --> 00:04:06,278 while I'm still around to fix it when you screw up. 114 00:04:06,280 --> 00:04:07,613 Gee, thanks. 115 00:04:07,615 --> 00:04:09,481 It's not a vote of confidence. It's a necessity. 116 00:04:09,483 --> 00:04:10,916 Training wheels are off, Robbins. 117 00:04:10,918 --> 00:04:12,301 Time is up. What's next? 118 00:04:12,302 --> 00:04:13,685 Uh, your radiation treatment. 119 00:04:13,687 --> 00:04:15,343 [ Clears throat ] Ugh. 120 00:04:15,344 --> 00:04:17,000 Radiation hasn't worked yet. 121 00:04:17,001 --> 00:04:18,657 I don't see why it's suddenly supposed to start working. 122 00:04:18,659 --> 00:04:19,758 Radiation is bull... 123 00:04:19,760 --> 00:04:21,627 Shepherd says that it's necessary. 124 00:04:21,629 --> 00:04:23,695 She's the doctor here. 125 00:04:23,697 --> 00:04:26,898 [ Indistinct conversations ] 126 00:04:26,900 --> 00:04:28,000 [ Conversations stop ] 127 00:04:30,304 --> 00:04:32,471 "Life will out." 128 00:04:32,473 --> 00:04:35,741 The origins and lessons of life and evolution 129 00:04:35,743 --> 00:04:38,794 are long and complex, 130 00:04:38,795 --> 00:04:41,846 but what they basically boil down to is, life will out. 131 00:04:41,849 --> 00:04:44,850 Life will always find a way to continue. 132 00:04:44,852 --> 00:04:45,951 Always. 133 00:04:45,953 --> 00:04:49,021 Life... Will... Out. 134 00:04:50,691 --> 00:04:54,459 This is a massive grade iv astrocytoma. 135 00:04:54,461 --> 00:04:56,461 I want you to take a look at it. 136 00:04:56,463 --> 00:04:58,530 Really look. 137 00:04:58,532 --> 00:05:00,399 Look at its size. 138 00:05:00,401 --> 00:05:02,901 Look at the way it invades healthy tissue. 139 00:05:02,903 --> 00:05:05,003 Look at its vasculature. 140 00:05:05,005 --> 00:05:09,808 It is blood and tissue and flesh. 141 00:05:09,810 --> 00:05:11,043 It's growing... [ Monitor beeps ] 142 00:05:11,045 --> 00:05:13,078 adapting to its environment, 143 00:05:13,080 --> 00:05:16,682 struggling to survive, to stay alive. 144 00:05:16,684 --> 00:05:17,983 It is alive. 145 00:05:17,985 --> 00:05:19,718 We don't like to think of it that way, 146 00:05:19,720 --> 00:05:22,888 but it's nested in the womb of a human brain, 147 00:05:22,890 --> 00:05:26,892 feeding on its host, growing and fighting for life... 148 00:05:26,894 --> 00:05:28,427 Almost like a fetus. 149 00:05:28,429 --> 00:05:29,728 No, scratch that. 150 00:05:29,730 --> 00:05:31,763 Let's just for science and giggles 151 00:05:31,765 --> 00:05:34,082 say exactly like a fetus. 152 00:05:34,083 --> 00:05:36,400 Because like a healthy fetus, it is thriving. 153 00:05:36,403 --> 00:05:38,837 You know, there are even some types of tumors 154 00:05:38,839 --> 00:05:41,340 that grow teeth, hair... [ Audience murmurs ] 155 00:05:41,342 --> 00:05:43,775 a stray eye. [ Audience groans loudly ] 156 00:05:43,777 --> 00:05:45,410 [ Chuckles ] 157 00:05:45,412 --> 00:05:46,912 Have I repulsed you? 158 00:05:46,914 --> 00:05:49,047 It's gross, right? Woman: Yeah. 159 00:05:49,049 --> 00:05:51,683 I mean, that is a problem. [ Sighs ] 160 00:05:51,685 --> 00:05:54,519 Nobody wants something that nasty in their head. 161 00:05:54,521 --> 00:05:58,824 I'd like you for one moment to consider the idea 162 00:05:58,826 --> 00:06:03,362 that, to the tumor, we are the problem, 163 00:06:03,364 --> 00:06:04,796 we are the invader. 164 00:06:04,798 --> 00:06:06,531 We are the danger. 165 00:06:06,533 --> 00:06:09,434 To the tumor, we are the cancer. 166 00:06:09,436 --> 00:06:11,570 And the tumor? 167 00:06:11,572 --> 00:06:15,107 Well, the tumor sees itself as a sweet, cute, fat-cheeked baby 168 00:06:15,109 --> 00:06:17,409 just trying to make its way into the world, 169 00:06:17,411 --> 00:06:20,078 and we want to stop it, destroy it, 170 00:06:20,080 --> 00:06:24,049 tear it from its happy little home like barbarians. 171 00:06:24,051 --> 00:06:25,951 To the tumor, 172 00:06:25,953 --> 00:06:28,920 we are the soulless, murderous monsters. 173 00:06:28,922 --> 00:06:31,123 Why do I do this? 174 00:06:31,125 --> 00:06:34,893 Why do I call it "baby" and talk about killing it? 175 00:06:34,895 --> 00:06:37,863 Because this kind of tumor deserves respect. 176 00:06:39,133 --> 00:06:41,066 It deserves a little humanity. 177 00:06:41,068 --> 00:06:43,835 Charming, isn't it? 178 00:06:43,837 --> 00:06:45,937 They put clouds on the ceiling to distract you. 179 00:06:45,939 --> 00:06:48,907 Least they could do is put something interesting up there, 180 00:06:48,909 --> 00:06:50,108 like porn. 181 00:06:50,110 --> 00:06:52,444 [ Chuckles ] 182 00:06:52,446 --> 00:06:54,263 [ Chuckles nervously ] 183 00:06:54,264 --> 00:06:56,081 It's not just a tumor. 184 00:06:56,083 --> 00:06:57,783 It's ingenuity. 185 00:06:57,785 --> 00:06:58,884 It's strength. 186 00:06:58,886 --> 00:07:00,719 It's adaptability. 187 00:07:00,721 --> 00:07:02,921 It's poetry. 188 00:07:02,923 --> 00:07:05,490 It's one of god's masterpieces. 189 00:07:05,492 --> 00:07:09,161 It is alive. 190 00:07:14,568 --> 00:07:15,801 Mm. 191 00:07:17,204 --> 00:07:18,770 [ Clips fastening ] 192 00:07:21,575 --> 00:07:23,575 [ Breathing rapidly ] 193 00:07:25,846 --> 00:07:27,646 You okay? 194 00:07:27,648 --> 00:07:30,182 Sure. 195 00:07:30,184 --> 00:07:33,018 And like any living thing, it wants to stay alive. 196 00:07:33,020 --> 00:07:34,653 Like any living thing, 197 00:07:34,655 --> 00:07:36,955 it is going to fight like hell to survive. 198 00:07:36,957 --> 00:07:40,125 And when I saw open that skull and come face-to-face with it, 199 00:07:40,127 --> 00:07:42,994 with that tumor, with that living thing, 200 00:07:42,996 --> 00:07:45,597 it will be almost impossible to remove... 201 00:07:45,599 --> 00:07:47,065 Well, I'll see you after. 202 00:07:49,870 --> 00:07:52,804 Because it would rather destroy the brain that holds it 203 00:07:52,806 --> 00:07:55,207 than go gently into that good night. 204 00:07:55,209 --> 00:07:57,742 [ Breathing deeply ] 205 00:08:11,959 --> 00:08:14,025 It is alive. 206 00:08:16,063 --> 00:08:18,830 And what's it all come down to? 207 00:08:18,832 --> 00:08:20,065 Life... 208 00:08:20,067 --> 00:08:21,833 Will... 209 00:08:21,835 --> 00:08:24,903 Out. 210 00:08:38,986 --> 00:08:43,588 Amelia: So, our fat-cheeked-baby tumor 211 00:08:43,590 --> 00:08:45,056 that's nestled in that brain, 212 00:08:45,058 --> 00:08:46,725 it's a creature of habit. 213 00:08:46,727 --> 00:08:50,595 It has the same routine day in and day out... 214 00:08:50,597 --> 00:08:53,965 To grow, to spread out, to take up space. 215 00:08:53,967 --> 00:08:55,800 [ Machine beeps, whirs ] That's it. 216 00:08:55,802 --> 00:09:02,173 At this point, our baby tumor is so enmeshed, so invasive, 217 00:09:02,175 --> 00:09:04,843 it's touching virtually every single brain structure. 218 00:09:04,845 --> 00:09:06,678 It's pushed existing tissue aside, 219 00:09:06,680 --> 00:09:09,848 shoved brain matter out of the way to find room for itself. 220 00:09:09,850 --> 00:09:15,153 How do you remove it without destroying the brain around it? 221 00:09:15,155 --> 00:09:17,989 How do you kill the baby without killing the mother? 222 00:09:19,126 --> 00:09:24,029 I stare at these scans, and the tumor stares back at me, 223 00:09:24,031 --> 00:09:26,965 daring me to try to extract it. 224 00:09:26,967 --> 00:09:29,668 I mean, this tumor is bold and brazen. 225 00:09:29,670 --> 00:09:30,969 This tumor thinks it's in charge. 226 00:09:30,971 --> 00:09:33,838 This tumor thinks it owns the place. 227 00:09:33,840 --> 00:09:35,307 I don't have to explain myself to you. 228 00:09:35,309 --> 00:09:37,108 You missed your radiation session this morning. 229 00:09:37,110 --> 00:09:39,044 I told you, I'm not doing that anymore. 230 00:09:39,046 --> 00:09:41,096 That is not your call. 231 00:09:41,097 --> 00:09:43,147 My tumor, my head... It absolutely is my call. 232 00:09:43,150 --> 00:09:45,884 The tumor will be exponentially easier to remove 233 00:09:45,886 --> 00:09:47,018 after the radiation. 234 00:09:47,020 --> 00:09:48,954 Nicole, please. 235 00:09:48,956 --> 00:09:50,589 Go to radiation! 236 00:09:50,591 --> 00:09:52,023 I will think about it. 237 00:09:52,025 --> 00:09:53,158 O-Kay. 238 00:09:53,160 --> 00:09:54,926 The thing about a tumor like this is, 239 00:09:54,928 --> 00:09:57,028 you can't let it intimidate you. 240 00:09:57,030 --> 00:09:59,764 The tumor isn't smarter than you. 241 00:09:59,766 --> 00:10:02,200 You just need a plan of attack. [ Monitor beeping ] 242 00:10:02,202 --> 00:10:03,268 Dr. Herman: Here. Feel that? 243 00:10:03,270 --> 00:10:05,036 You must be methodical. 244 00:10:05,038 --> 00:10:07,005 You want to find a spot with just the right amount of give. 245 00:10:07,007 --> 00:10:08,139 That's where you want to cut. 246 00:10:08,141 --> 00:10:08,974 Scalpel. 247 00:10:08,976 --> 00:10:10,709 Point of access is key. 248 00:10:10,711 --> 00:10:11,810 You're up, Robbins. 249 00:10:11,812 --> 00:10:12,877 Arizona: I know. 250 00:10:12,879 --> 00:10:14,863 I've never done that part before. 251 00:10:14,864 --> 00:10:16,848 So, um, you were really serious about that? 252 00:10:16,850 --> 00:10:17,882 It's time. Make the cut. 253 00:10:17,884 --> 00:10:19,317 But I don't know... I've never... 254 00:10:19,319 --> 00:10:21,052 Make the cut. 255 00:10:23,957 --> 00:10:24,990 [ Clears throat ] 256 00:10:29,029 --> 00:10:30,895 And then you start. 257 00:10:32,899 --> 00:10:36,401 That is the most daunting step... 258 00:10:36,403 --> 00:10:41,906 Pushing a blade into that first squishy blob of flesh... 259 00:10:41,908 --> 00:10:45,043 Because the first cut is what sets the tone. 260 00:10:45,045 --> 00:10:50,949 It determines every single move from that point on. 261 00:10:50,951 --> 00:10:53,418 So, you have to be careful. 262 00:10:53,420 --> 00:10:54,953 You have to be sure. 263 00:10:54,955 --> 00:10:59,691 Or you're in trouble. 264 00:11:00,360 --> 00:11:02,861 Dr. Herman: It's like a... Arizona: [ Laughs ] 265 00:11:02,863 --> 00:11:04,880 Just look at them. 266 00:11:04,881 --> 00:11:06,898 Alex: Who? Arizona and Herman... they're practically joined at the hip. 267 00:11:06,900 --> 00:11:08,299 Arizona: I'll take one of those, too. 268 00:11:08,301 --> 00:11:09,834 Well, she is Herman's fellow. 269 00:11:09,835 --> 00:11:11,368 Isn't she sort of supposed to follow Herman around? 270 00:11:11,371 --> 00:11:13,872 They're laughing all the time, [ Nicole and Arizona laughing ] 271 00:11:13,874 --> 00:11:16,908 And Arizona seems so... 272 00:11:16,910 --> 00:11:18,410 Happy... Like really happy. 273 00:11:18,412 --> 00:11:19,210 So? 274 00:11:19,212 --> 00:11:21,279 You seem happy... Ish. 275 00:11:21,281 --> 00:11:23,415 What do you even care? I don't, obviously. 276 00:11:23,417 --> 00:11:25,984 I'm just making conversation. 277 00:11:25,986 --> 00:11:28,553 Arizona: [ Laughs ] 278 00:11:28,554 --> 00:11:31,121 don't you guys think it's weird how they're always together? They're not always together. 279 00:11:31,124 --> 00:11:32,924 They do bunk up together sometimes. 280 00:11:32,926 --> 00:11:34,359 What? Alex. Robbins has been crashing with Herman. 281 00:11:34,361 --> 00:11:35,927 She hasn't slept at the house all week. 282 00:11:35,929 --> 00:11:36,895 What?! Alex. 283 00:11:36,897 --> 00:11:38,430 I-I don't mean like that. 284 00:11:38,431 --> 00:11:39,964 They're not together together, and you know that. 285 00:11:39,966 --> 00:11:41,516 [ Sarcastically ] Mm-hmm. 286 00:11:41,517 --> 00:11:43,067 Arizona used to hate her. Now they're having sleepovers? 287 00:11:43,070 --> 00:11:45,904 Well, it's a good thing, right, that they're getting along? 288 00:11:45,906 --> 00:11:47,806 Herman's not exactly the warmest person, so... 289 00:11:47,808 --> 00:11:49,252 Yeah, whatever. 290 00:11:49,253 --> 00:11:50,697 When you talk to Derek tonight, 291 00:11:50,698 --> 00:11:52,142 would you ask him something for me without saying it's for me? 292 00:11:52,145 --> 00:11:53,411 I don't know that I w... 293 00:11:53,413 --> 00:11:54,946 Just ask him what he'd use 294 00:11:54,948 --> 00:11:56,948 to avoid disrupting the gratiolet radiations 295 00:11:56,950 --> 00:11:58,817 off the geniculate body of the thalamus. 296 00:11:58,819 --> 00:12:00,385 Why don't you ask him that? No, no, no. 297 00:12:00,387 --> 00:12:02,020 No, no. That's the point. You ask him. 298 00:12:02,022 --> 00:12:03,288 I can't ask him for help. 299 00:12:03,290 --> 00:12:05,857 I cannot listen to the smugness in his voice. 300 00:12:05,859 --> 00:12:07,526 You can hear it. 301 00:12:07,527 --> 00:12:09,194 He has transcontinental smugness. You know what? 302 00:12:09,196 --> 00:12:11,296 Forget it. I'm fine. I don't need him. 303 00:12:11,298 --> 00:12:12,330 I don't need Derek. 304 00:12:12,332 --> 00:12:13,998 I will figure it out myself. 305 00:12:14,000 --> 00:12:15,734 When did this happen? 306 00:12:15,736 --> 00:12:17,619 She found the perfect rebound 307 00:12:17,620 --> 00:12:19,503 without having to actually find a [Laughing] rebound... 308 00:12:19,506 --> 00:12:21,906 I mean, she just gets all the good times and the fun, 309 00:12:21,908 --> 00:12:23,908 none of the bad times or the mess, 310 00:12:23,910 --> 00:12:25,343 no chance of getting hurt. 311 00:12:25,345 --> 00:12:27,812 You don't even have to wax. It's not fair! 312 00:12:27,814 --> 00:12:29,547 [ Slurps ] 313 00:12:29,548 --> 00:12:31,281 Oh, my god. Am I seriously wishing for a sexless relationship 314 00:12:31,284 --> 00:12:32,817 where I don't have to groom myself? 315 00:12:32,819 --> 00:12:33,819 Is that where I am now? 316 00:12:33,820 --> 00:12:35,053 It sounds good to me. 317 00:12:35,055 --> 00:12:36,121 Welcome to my life these days. 318 00:12:36,123 --> 00:12:37,489 You chicks need to get laid. 319 00:12:37,491 --> 00:12:38,990 That also sounds good to me. 320 00:12:38,992 --> 00:12:41,025 [ Sighs ] Not without the grooming. 321 00:12:41,027 --> 00:12:42,527 It's in there. He can find it. 322 00:12:42,529 --> 00:12:44,062 What, he can't do a little work first? 323 00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:45,997 [ Chuckles ] I like her. 324 00:12:45,999 --> 00:12:47,031 [ Chuckles ] 325 00:12:47,033 --> 00:12:48,533 [ Cash register beeping ] 326 00:12:51,004 --> 00:12:52,403 Miranda: Eddie. 327 00:12:52,405 --> 00:12:53,972 Arizona: Excuse me? 328 00:12:53,974 --> 00:12:55,507 Uh, glenda castillo, 329 00:12:55,508 --> 00:12:57,041 the patient you and Herman turned down last week, 330 00:12:57,043 --> 00:12:58,977 her husband's name was Eddie. 331 00:12:58,979 --> 00:13:01,279 I lost him six months ago 332 00:13:01,281 --> 00:13:04,349 after he was injured in a head-on collision. 333 00:13:04,351 --> 00:13:06,351 My hands were inside of his body 334 00:13:06,353 --> 00:13:07,886 when his heart stopped beating. 335 00:13:07,888 --> 00:13:09,287 My hands held glenda's 336 00:13:09,289 --> 00:13:11,890 when I told her Eddie died on my watch. 337 00:13:11,892 --> 00:13:14,292 Three weeks later, she found out she was pregnant. 338 00:13:14,294 --> 00:13:15,894 She's not insured, 339 00:13:15,896 --> 00:13:18,062 but she remembered me and this hospital, 340 00:13:18,064 --> 00:13:19,564 so, she came here 341 00:13:19,565 --> 00:13:21,065 to see if I could give her some prenatal care, 342 00:13:21,067 --> 00:13:23,034 and guess what we found out. 343 00:13:23,036 --> 00:13:25,837 Her baby has a tumor... 344 00:13:25,839 --> 00:13:29,374 A large, dangerous tumor 345 00:13:29,376 --> 00:13:31,943 that's not just messing with the baby's system, 346 00:13:31,945 --> 00:13:33,311 it's messing with hers. 347 00:13:33,313 --> 00:13:35,413 [ Sighs ] I couldn't save her husband's life, 348 00:13:35,415 --> 00:13:37,448 but I can help save her baby. 349 00:13:37,450 --> 00:13:39,450 I-I owe this woman that much. 350 00:13:39,452 --> 00:13:42,954 Herman has to take her on as a patient. 351 00:13:42,956 --> 00:13:44,389 Just... just have her meet glenda, all right? 352 00:13:44,391 --> 00:13:46,291 Then she'll... I can't, I can't! 353 00:13:46,292 --> 00:13:48,192 I can't trick her into seeing a patient she doesn't want to treat. 354 00:13:48,195 --> 00:13:49,260 Who's in charge of her schedule? 355 00:13:49,262 --> 00:13:51,062 Who tells her where to go and when? 356 00:13:51,064 --> 00:13:55,266 Who tells her what surgery or post-op or anonymous consult 357 00:13:55,268 --> 00:13:58,069 she should see next? [ Sighs ] 358 00:13:58,071 --> 00:13:59,137 Uh... 359 00:13:59,139 --> 00:14:00,622 [ Heartbeat ] 360 00:14:00,623 --> 00:14:02,106 I'm concerned about her blood pressure. 361 00:14:02,108 --> 00:14:05,043 It's increased to 140 systolic in the past week, 362 00:14:05,045 --> 00:14:06,611 and her swelling's gotten worse. 363 00:14:06,613 --> 00:14:07,979 Glenda: Uh, I used to have ankles. 364 00:14:07,981 --> 00:14:09,981 Now I have balloons with toes. 365 00:14:09,983 --> 00:14:11,282 [ Laughter ] 366 00:14:11,284 --> 00:14:15,053 So, your baby has a large tumor in his lower back. 367 00:14:15,055 --> 00:14:16,771 It's most likely benign, 368 00:14:16,772 --> 00:14:18,488 but because of its size and vascular nature, 369 00:14:18,491 --> 00:14:21,259 it could cause an accumulation of fluids in the baby. 370 00:14:21,261 --> 00:14:23,895 [ Sighs ] But the tumor can be removed, right? 371 00:14:24,865 --> 00:14:27,131 Dr. Bailey says amazing things about you, 372 00:14:27,133 --> 00:14:28,967 that you're one of the best. 373 00:14:28,969 --> 00:14:30,969 Bailey said that? 374 00:14:30,971 --> 00:14:32,470 How flattering. 375 00:14:32,472 --> 00:14:33,938 That was glenda castillo. 376 00:14:33,940 --> 00:14:36,641 I told you no twice now. 377 00:14:36,643 --> 00:14:39,477 And you, how am I supposed to trust you at all 378 00:14:39,479 --> 00:14:40,979 when you pull something like that? 379 00:14:40,981 --> 00:14:42,247 She didn't do anything 380 00:14:42,248 --> 00:14:43,514 except try to get your help on a patient 381 00:14:43,516 --> 00:14:45,250 who needs your help. 382 00:14:45,252 --> 00:14:47,619 But if you heard her story, if you knew she was... 383 00:14:47,621 --> 00:14:49,487 Is that how Bailey convinced you? 384 00:14:49,489 --> 00:14:51,422 It's a tactic, Robbins, 385 00:14:51,424 --> 00:14:54,359 appealing to your sad, bleeding heart. 386 00:14:54,361 --> 00:14:55,994 Doesn't work with me. 387 00:14:55,996 --> 00:14:57,596 Well, then, let me appeal to your ego. 388 00:14:57,597 --> 00:14:59,197 You walk around here telling anyone who will listen 389 00:14:59,199 --> 00:15:00,531 that you're the best. 390 00:15:00,533 --> 00:15:02,533 Well, then, be the best. 391 00:15:02,535 --> 00:15:05,036 You can save her baby's life, 392 00:15:05,038 --> 00:15:07,105 so save that baby's life! 393 00:15:09,509 --> 00:15:11,242 No. 394 00:15:11,244 --> 00:15:12,244 Ohh. 395 00:15:16,283 --> 00:15:18,216 What the hell? Robbins, drop it. 396 00:15:18,217 --> 00:15:20,150 No, I get that... I get that I've seen tumors like that before, 397 00:15:20,153 --> 00:15:21,486 but this can't all be about my education. 398 00:15:21,488 --> 00:15:23,505 I mean, at some point, I have to... 399 00:15:23,506 --> 00:15:25,523 At some point, we have to make decisions and stick to them. 400 00:15:25,525 --> 00:15:27,926 I wish we had time, but we don't. 401 00:15:27,928 --> 00:15:30,061 We have very little control over the time we have, 402 00:15:30,063 --> 00:15:31,229 and we have a plan. 403 00:15:31,231 --> 00:15:33,097 Can't we make an exception? 404 00:15:33,099 --> 00:15:34,599 Can't we just, you know, sort of adjust the plan? 405 00:15:34,601 --> 00:15:36,701 You... fine. You want to? 406 00:15:36,703 --> 00:15:38,569 Adjust the plan. 407 00:15:38,571 --> 00:15:40,338 What are you doing? 408 00:15:40,340 --> 00:15:41,639 Take down one of these cards 409 00:15:41,641 --> 00:15:42,707 so we have time to help Mrs. castillo. 410 00:15:42,709 --> 00:15:44,943 Which one? 411 00:15:44,944 --> 00:15:47,178 How about Meghan Carlson... Congenital airway obstruction? 412 00:15:47,180 --> 00:15:48,446 Her husband's in Iraq right now. 413 00:15:48,448 --> 00:15:51,049 Or Julie hall... Vasa previa. 414 00:15:51,051 --> 00:15:53,217 She went through two years of fertility treatments. 415 00:15:53,219 --> 00:15:55,086 So, pick one. 416 00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:56,988 Decide which baby doesn't get to live 417 00:15:56,990 --> 00:15:59,057 so glenda castillo's does. 418 00:15:59,059 --> 00:16:00,091 Go ahead. 419 00:16:00,093 --> 00:16:02,694 Pick a card. You choose. 420 00:16:07,167 --> 00:16:09,067 That's what I thought. 421 00:16:27,620 --> 00:16:29,454 [ Monitor beeps, machinery whirring ] 422 00:16:29,456 --> 00:16:31,356 Dr. Herman: [ Breathing shakily ] 423 00:16:33,693 --> 00:16:35,193 No. 424 00:16:35,195 --> 00:16:37,295 No. 425 00:16:37,297 --> 00:16:38,997 Get me out! 426 00:16:38,999 --> 00:16:41,332 Get me out of here! 427 00:16:41,334 --> 00:16:42,367 Get me out! 428 00:16:42,369 --> 00:16:43,735 You have to. I don't. 429 00:16:43,737 --> 00:16:45,737 The radiation treatments are going to help. 430 00:16:45,739 --> 00:16:47,705 They are gonna shrink the borders of the tumor, 431 00:16:47,707 --> 00:16:49,273 which will make it easier to resect. 432 00:16:49,275 --> 00:16:51,376 It's a minimal gain for you. 433 00:16:51,377 --> 00:16:53,478 I will take what I can get. I am trying to save your life! 434 00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:56,114 You are making me feel like I've already died. 435 00:16:56,116 --> 00:16:57,749 I'm sick. I'm losing my hair. 436 00:16:57,751 --> 00:17:00,418 I refuse to spend the last few months of my life 437 00:17:00,420 --> 00:17:02,020 feeling like a pile of crap. 438 00:17:02,022 --> 00:17:03,022 No more. 439 00:17:03,023 --> 00:17:04,589 That's final. 440 00:17:04,591 --> 00:17:07,091 Woman over p.A: Dr. Stanley, please report... 441 00:17:07,093 --> 00:17:09,761 I am going to give you more than a few months. 442 00:17:09,763 --> 00:17:12,597 I am going to save your life. 443 00:17:12,599 --> 00:17:15,066 And I am about to get up in front of a bunch of people 444 00:17:15,068 --> 00:17:17,168 and tell them how I plan on doing it. 445 00:17:17,170 --> 00:17:20,104 It makes it really hard for me to do that 446 00:17:20,106 --> 00:17:21,706 or even care about doing that 447 00:17:21,708 --> 00:17:23,608 when you don't seem to care at all! 448 00:17:23,610 --> 00:17:26,077 Well, that's your problem. 449 00:17:26,079 --> 00:17:27,378 [ Exhales sharply ] 450 00:17:27,380 --> 00:17:30,148 [ Indistinct conversations ] 451 00:17:31,084 --> 00:17:33,351 Richard: Well, the word's spreading. 452 00:17:33,353 --> 00:17:34,819 This was a good idea, hunt... 453 00:17:34,821 --> 00:17:37,455 A master class in neurosurgery. 454 00:17:37,457 --> 00:17:39,424 This is gonna put Amelia Shepherd on the map. 455 00:17:39,426 --> 00:17:40,758 Mm. Unless it fails. 456 00:17:40,760 --> 00:17:42,193 It won't. 457 00:17:42,195 --> 00:17:44,796 If it does... 458 00:17:44,798 --> 00:17:47,465 There's a lesson in that, too. 459 00:17:50,703 --> 00:17:52,770 So, she just spitballs this stuff with you? 460 00:17:52,772 --> 00:17:55,773 It's just the two of you hanging out, talking tumor? 461 00:17:55,775 --> 00:17:57,275 Pretty much. 462 00:17:57,276 --> 00:17:58,776 I want to talk tumor! [ Chuckles ] 463 00:17:58,778 --> 00:18:01,779 I want to talk tumor so bad. Shh! 464 00:18:01,781 --> 00:18:04,348 Oh, my god. Look at that thing yeah. 465 00:18:04,350 --> 00:18:06,117 Previous attempts 466 00:18:06,119 --> 00:18:08,119 to treat Dr. Herman's tumor with radiation 467 00:18:08,121 --> 00:18:09,854 proved unsuccessful. 468 00:18:09,856 --> 00:18:13,091 I had hoped to use high radioactive doses 469 00:18:13,093 --> 00:18:14,625 to reduce the margins, 470 00:18:14,627 --> 00:18:16,360 but at this juncture, 471 00:18:16,362 --> 00:18:19,497 that course seems to be unrealistic. 472 00:18:21,134 --> 00:18:22,834 But that's not enough to make me quit. 473 00:18:22,836 --> 00:18:28,806 This tumor is fierce and intimidating and aggressive, 474 00:18:28,808 --> 00:18:30,174 but so am I. 475 00:18:32,579 --> 00:18:34,512 [ Monitor beeping ] 476 00:18:34,514 --> 00:18:36,381 Dr. Herman: Now, the trick to this is, 477 00:18:36,382 --> 00:18:38,249 you can't touch the vessel while you're lasering the mass... 478 00:18:38,251 --> 00:18:39,150 Not even a little bit. 479 00:18:39,152 --> 00:18:40,802 If you do... 480 00:18:40,803 --> 00:18:42,453 Arizona: The field fills with blood, obscuring the camera, 481 00:18:42,455 --> 00:18:44,222 and visualization is compromised. 482 00:18:44,224 --> 00:18:47,425 First, I need to see the tumor, all of it... 483 00:18:47,427 --> 00:18:50,328 Every margin, every last ripple and Ridge. 484 00:18:50,330 --> 00:18:52,296 So, what do you do? 485 00:18:52,298 --> 00:18:53,965 I have two choices... 486 00:18:53,966 --> 00:18:55,633 Open her up and stop the bleeding if I can, 487 00:18:55,635 --> 00:18:58,269 or deliver the baby regardless of how early. 488 00:18:58,271 --> 00:18:59,337 Very good. 489 00:18:59,339 --> 00:19:01,806 So, I will employ fluorescein dye 490 00:19:01,808 --> 00:19:04,242 to delineate every border of the tumor, 491 00:19:04,244 --> 00:19:07,378 to help me anticipate every possible problem 492 00:19:07,380 --> 00:19:08,779 before I get to it. 493 00:19:08,781 --> 00:19:10,715 I don't want to leave anything up to chance. 494 00:19:10,717 --> 00:19:12,250 Julie: [ Groaning ] [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 495 00:19:12,252 --> 00:19:13,818 Dr. Herman: What happened? 496 00:19:13,820 --> 00:19:15,203 Maggie: The pressure's dropped. 497 00:19:15,204 --> 00:19:16,587 She's in a lot of pain, and she's cramping. 498 00:19:16,589 --> 00:19:18,206 Julie: It hurts! It hurts, it hurts! 499 00:19:18,207 --> 00:19:19,824 Arizona: It's okay, Julie. We've got you, we've got you. 500 00:19:19,826 --> 00:19:21,159 She has a vasa previa. 501 00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:22,493 She's scheduled for an ablation tomorrow. 502 00:19:22,495 --> 00:19:24,695 I've been trying to get her pressure back up, 503 00:19:24,697 --> 00:19:26,397 but there is no fetal heartbeat. 504 00:19:26,399 --> 00:19:27,798 [ Flatline ] 505 00:19:27,800 --> 00:19:29,901 Damn it. Where's her husband? 506 00:19:31,404 --> 00:19:32,837 Julie: Is that blood?! I'm bleeding?! 507 00:19:32,839 --> 00:19:34,839 Gown me. Keep him out of here. 508 00:19:34,841 --> 00:19:37,608 Robbins, you're gonna get this baby out right here, right now. 509 00:19:37,610 --> 00:19:39,026 Here? 510 00:19:39,027 --> 00:19:40,443 We need a c-section tray set up in here. 511 00:19:40,446 --> 00:19:41,679 Call peds. Get an Incubator, stat. 512 00:19:41,681 --> 00:19:43,648 Wait! What?! I'm gonna have the baby now?! 513 00:19:43,649 --> 00:19:45,616 Julie, I'm gonna give you something to calm you down, okay? 514 00:19:45,618 --> 00:19:47,585 I never had to do a crash "c" on my own before, okay? 515 00:19:47,587 --> 00:19:49,737 I mean, n-not like this. Dr. Herman: You know what to do. 516 00:19:49,738 --> 00:19:51,888 It's the same three basic steps, just like any other c-section... 517 00:19:51,891 --> 00:19:53,758 Open the abdomen, open the uterus, deliver. 518 00:19:53,760 --> 00:19:54,792 Okay, I'm okay. 519 00:19:54,794 --> 00:19:56,594 Pressure's steady at 100/60. 520 00:19:56,596 --> 00:19:58,229 Okay, I-I can do this. Betadine. 521 00:19:58,231 --> 00:19:59,231 Okay. 522 00:20:00,366 --> 00:20:01,866 Robbins? I'll do... I'll do this. 523 00:20:01,868 --> 00:20:02,934 It's fine, Robbins. 524 00:20:02,936 --> 00:20:04,202 I'll do it. 525 00:20:04,204 --> 00:20:05,436 Scalpel. 526 00:20:09,275 --> 00:20:10,541 [ Sobbing ] 527 00:20:10,543 --> 00:20:11,876 [ Muffled ] I'm so sorry. 528 00:20:11,878 --> 00:20:14,679 We did everything we could do. 529 00:20:14,681 --> 00:20:16,581 [ Sobbing continues ] 530 00:20:16,583 --> 00:20:18,849 I'm so sorry. 531 00:20:27,894 --> 00:20:30,861 Good job. Let's go. 532 00:20:32,532 --> 00:20:35,399 [ Crying, sniffling ] 533 00:20:35,401 --> 00:20:36,867 Stop crying. 534 00:20:36,869 --> 00:20:38,736 Oh, for the love of... 535 00:20:38,738 --> 00:20:39,837 Stop crying! I'm... 536 00:20:39,839 --> 00:20:41,539 Stop it now! Just... 537 00:20:42,709 --> 00:20:44,542 Stop it right now. 538 00:20:48,781 --> 00:20:50,915 There's no time for crying. 539 00:20:50,917 --> 00:20:52,416 [ Marker scratching ] 540 00:20:52,418 --> 00:20:53,751 We have work to do. 541 00:20:58,024 --> 00:20:59,390 What? 542 00:20:59,392 --> 00:21:01,459 H-how can you even... 543 00:21:01,461 --> 00:21:02,981 'cause that's the way it goes, Robbins. 544 00:21:04,264 --> 00:21:05,029 [ Sighs ] 545 00:21:05,031 --> 00:21:06,831 Call Bailey. 546 00:21:06,833 --> 00:21:07,898 Tell her we're on. 547 00:21:25,418 --> 00:21:27,518 [ Machinery whirring ] 548 00:21:27,520 --> 00:21:30,755 Amelia: Now, arguably, the most important part of the brain 549 00:21:30,757 --> 00:21:33,824 is the part that makes us hope... 550 00:21:33,826 --> 00:21:36,460 Dream... 551 00:21:36,462 --> 00:21:37,962 Imagine. 552 00:21:37,964 --> 00:21:40,898 One singular, almost immeasurable part 553 00:21:40,900 --> 00:21:45,436 is what makes you you... 554 00:21:45,438 --> 00:21:47,571 And me me... 555 00:21:47,573 --> 00:21:49,807 And everyone... Everyone. 556 00:21:49,809 --> 00:21:52,910 It's technically called the fornix, 557 00:21:52,912 --> 00:21:57,682 but I call it the "dream box." 558 00:21:57,684 --> 00:22:00,584 The question is... [ Monitor beeps ] 559 00:22:00,586 --> 00:22:03,888 what happens when the dream box is being invaded, 560 00:22:03,890 --> 00:22:07,858 when a tumor is so large, so demanding, 561 00:22:07,860 --> 00:22:10,961 it's sucking the dream box dry? 562 00:22:10,963 --> 00:22:13,881 It's taking over... 563 00:22:13,882 --> 00:22:16,800 It's stealing away hopes and dreams. 564 00:22:16,803 --> 00:22:20,071 Imagine, when that tumor is removed, 565 00:22:20,073 --> 00:22:23,908 what... what will actually be left? 566 00:22:23,910 --> 00:22:28,079 Or, rather, who is left? 567 00:22:28,081 --> 00:22:30,848 Anything? 568 00:22:30,850 --> 00:22:33,584 Anyone? 569 00:22:33,586 --> 00:22:35,019 Dr. Herman: I remember my mom telling me once 570 00:22:35,021 --> 00:22:37,888 that when we die, we go to heaven. 571 00:22:37,890 --> 00:22:39,824 I couldn't picture it. 572 00:22:39,826 --> 00:22:43,027 All I could imagine was what we see in cartoons... 573 00:22:43,029 --> 00:22:46,964 Little people in robes with wings, sitting on clouds. 574 00:22:46,966 --> 00:22:49,033 But nobody really knows what's up there, do they? 575 00:22:49,035 --> 00:22:50,852 Arizona: When I was a kid, 576 00:22:50,853 --> 00:22:52,670 I used to think that we were like dandelions... 577 00:22:52,672 --> 00:22:56,607 Like, the part that makes us us would just blow away 578 00:22:56,609 --> 00:22:58,509 and land and grow into... 579 00:22:58,511 --> 00:22:59,877 I don't want to be buried, by the way. 580 00:22:59,879 --> 00:23:01,145 Have me cremated. 581 00:23:01,147 --> 00:23:02,847 W... excuse me? 582 00:23:02,849 --> 00:23:04,815 If I survive the surgery but don't wake up, 583 00:23:04,817 --> 00:23:07,651 give me five days... A week, tops... 584 00:23:07,653 --> 00:23:08,919 Then pull the plug. This is... 585 00:23:08,921 --> 00:23:10,488 We don't need to be talking about this. 586 00:23:10,490 --> 00:23:12,990 If I do wake up but I'm dependent on vents or tubes, 587 00:23:12,992 --> 00:23:14,458 pull the plug then, too. 588 00:23:14,460 --> 00:23:16,660 Y-you know what? You're not... you're not dying. 589 00:23:16,662 --> 00:23:18,095 You're not gonna wake up gorked. 590 00:23:18,097 --> 00:23:20,464 Shepherd knows what she's doing. She does. Okay. Sure. 591 00:23:20,466 --> 00:23:22,032 She does! I heard you. 592 00:23:23,903 --> 00:23:25,035 [ Sighs ] [ Wings fluttering ] 593 00:23:25,037 --> 00:23:26,871 That bird is gonna poop on us. 594 00:23:26,873 --> 00:23:27,972 Oh... 595 00:23:27,974 --> 00:23:29,407 What's next today? 596 00:23:29,409 --> 00:23:30,658 Glenda castillo. 597 00:23:30,659 --> 00:23:31,908 Glenda: I'm so glad you brought me back in. 598 00:23:31,911 --> 00:23:34,879 [ Heartbeat ] Have a look. 599 00:23:34,881 --> 00:23:36,080 Well, the teratoma has grown. 600 00:23:36,082 --> 00:23:39,583 It's showing early signs of hydrops. 601 00:23:39,585 --> 00:23:42,620 Is everything okay? Glenda, your baby's retaining fluid, 602 00:23:42,622 --> 00:23:44,855 which is starting to affect his heart. 603 00:23:44,857 --> 00:23:46,957 I'm recommending we do the surgery tonight. 604 00:23:46,959 --> 00:23:47,825 Tonight? 605 00:23:47,827 --> 00:23:49,627 No, that's way too soon. 606 00:23:49,629 --> 00:23:51,862 The tumor is creating pressure on your placenta. 607 00:23:51,864 --> 00:23:53,998 It's not only endangering the baby, 608 00:23:54,000 --> 00:23:55,666 but now it's putting you at risk. 609 00:23:55,668 --> 00:23:57,835 But my baby wouldn't survive, would he, 610 00:23:57,837 --> 00:24:00,037 if you suddenly had to deliver? 611 00:24:00,039 --> 00:24:01,806 'Cause I'm only 24 weeks along, 612 00:24:01,808 --> 00:24:03,808 and I-I know that it would help him if he had time to grow, right? 613 00:24:03,810 --> 00:24:05,709 If I could just hold on for a few more weeks... 614 00:24:05,711 --> 00:24:06,944 It's not what's best for you. 615 00:24:06,946 --> 00:24:08,579 I don't care about me. 616 00:24:08,581 --> 00:24:10,514 Glenda, if Dr. Herman thinks that... 617 00:24:10,516 --> 00:24:12,983 No, my husband is dead. 618 00:24:12,985 --> 00:24:15,586 [ Voice breaking ] But this baby that is inside of me, 619 00:24:15,588 --> 00:24:17,855 this baby of ours, I cannot risk his life. 620 00:24:17,857 --> 00:24:19,490 I won't. 621 00:24:19,492 --> 00:24:20,891 So, if there is a choice 622 00:24:20,893 --> 00:24:23,694 between helping me or helping my baby, 623 00:24:23,696 --> 00:24:25,029 I choose my baby. 624 00:24:26,799 --> 00:24:28,999 What does she think we're trying to do here? 625 00:24:29,001 --> 00:24:31,368 I am not negotiating with a patient. 626 00:24:31,369 --> 00:24:33,809 I am the doctor. I'm gonna tell her when we're go... [ Laughs ] 627 00:24:35,208 --> 00:24:36,874 I'm sorry. 628 00:24:36,876 --> 00:24:38,242 Robbins, what's the hell? What's funny about this? 629 00:24:38,244 --> 00:24:40,578 I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It's just... it's just... 630 00:24:40,580 --> 00:24:43,247 It's funny listening to you get so bent out of shape 631 00:24:43,249 --> 00:24:44,815 when this is the exact same thing 632 00:24:44,817 --> 00:24:46,250 that you've been doing to Amelia Shepherd 633 00:24:46,252 --> 00:24:47,852 ever since she offered to save her life. 634 00:24:47,854 --> 00:24:49,720 I mean, she has. Exactly. 635 00:24:49,722 --> 00:24:51,889 "We'll do the surgery when I'm ready." 636 00:24:51,891 --> 00:24:53,407 And it's so frustrating. 637 00:24:53,408 --> 00:24:54,924 It's torture, and it drives us crazy. 638 00:24:54,927 --> 00:24:56,827 So, it's just fun to watch it happen to you. 639 00:24:56,829 --> 00:24:57,895 It's like divine justice. 640 00:24:57,897 --> 00:24:59,129 Pretend that I'm not here. 641 00:24:59,131 --> 00:25:01,198 Keep going. 642 00:25:03,202 --> 00:25:06,003 I will give Ms. castillo an extra week, 643 00:25:06,005 --> 00:25:07,905 but I want her admitted. 644 00:25:07,907 --> 00:25:09,807 And if she so much as hiccups funny, 645 00:25:09,809 --> 00:25:10,908 I'm taking her to surgery. 646 00:25:10,910 --> 00:25:12,176 J... understood. 647 00:25:13,045 --> 00:25:15,846 Hey, thank you for taking her case. 648 00:25:17,583 --> 00:25:18,782 [ Chuckles ] 649 00:25:18,784 --> 00:25:19,950 Oh, shut up. 650 00:25:19,952 --> 00:25:21,585 [ Chuckles ] 651 00:25:21,587 --> 00:25:24,622 [ Laughter ] [ Liquid pours ] 652 00:25:24,624 --> 00:25:26,891 ¶ I want to tell you everything ¶ 653 00:25:26,893 --> 00:25:28,759 [ laughing ] I can't... 654 00:25:29,829 --> 00:25:34,131 ¶ My darkest secrets, won't you keep? ¶ holy... oh. Ah. Ah. 655 00:25:34,133 --> 00:25:39,303 How do I access that area of the brain when it's so hidden? 656 00:25:39,305 --> 00:25:42,106 And once I access that area, 657 00:25:42,108 --> 00:25:45,843 even with the perfect tools, the perfect approach... 658 00:25:45,845 --> 00:25:50,814 ¶ I'll share my house and things with you ¶ How do I keep from screwing it up? 659 00:25:50,816 --> 00:25:54,985 ¶ This world of mine is your world, too ¶ Amelia: If there's edema, it's post-fixed. 660 00:25:54,987 --> 00:25:56,687 It's too narrow, too close the fornix. 661 00:25:56,689 --> 00:25:58,889 If I hit the hypothalamus, game over. 662 00:25:58,891 --> 00:26:01,625 Not gonna work, not gonna work, not gonna work. 663 00:26:01,627 --> 00:26:03,861 ¶ Let it grow around ¶ come on! 664 00:26:03,863 --> 00:26:05,095 Do you want some food? 665 00:26:05,097 --> 00:26:06,830 Amelia: Have I figured this out yet? 666 00:26:06,832 --> 00:26:08,165 No. 667 00:26:08,167 --> 00:26:11,969 Then I don't want any food. ¶ my fee-e-e-e-t ¶ 668 00:26:11,971 --> 00:26:14,338 [ breathes deeply ] 669 00:26:14,340 --> 00:26:16,640 ¶ They'll grow around ¶ 670 00:26:16,642 --> 00:26:19,043 this has never been done before. 671 00:26:19,045 --> 00:26:22,980 All these steps in this order on this kind of tumor 672 00:26:22,982 --> 00:26:24,848 has never been done. 673 00:26:24,850 --> 00:26:27,084 Is that a good thing or a bad thing? 674 00:26:27,086 --> 00:26:30,721 Who do I even think I am? Who am I to even try this? 675 00:26:30,723 --> 00:26:31,889 Okay, a bad thing. 676 00:26:31,891 --> 00:26:33,057 [ Sighs ] 677 00:26:35,361 --> 00:26:37,094 ¶ As the days turn into weeks ¶ 678 00:26:37,096 --> 00:26:40,664 Stephanie: Have you called your brother? 679 00:26:40,666 --> 00:26:43,033 ¶ Weeks to years ¶ what did I say about my brother? 680 00:26:43,035 --> 00:26:44,902 I know. You don't need him. 681 00:26:44,904 --> 00:26:47,605 I was just thinking you could, 682 00:26:47,607 --> 00:26:50,107 just to have someone to bounce these ideas off of 683 00:26:50,109 --> 00:26:53,844 who understands this kind of thing the way that you do... 684 00:26:53,846 --> 00:26:55,913 A peer. 685 00:26:55,915 --> 00:26:57,848 He might have a suggestion. 686 00:26:57,850 --> 00:27:00,017 I do not need my brother! 687 00:27:00,019 --> 00:27:02,653 I am not stuck! I am thinking! 688 00:27:02,655 --> 00:27:04,288 I am figuring it out! 689 00:27:04,289 --> 00:27:05,922 I am right on the edge of figuring it out, 690 00:27:05,925 --> 00:27:08,192 of making the breakthrough of a lifetime! 691 00:27:08,194 --> 00:27:09,927 I am this close! 692 00:27:09,928 --> 00:27:11,661 My genius is flying around this room right now, 693 00:27:11,664 --> 00:27:13,864 trying to find a clear path to land on me, 694 00:27:13,866 --> 00:27:15,933 but I can't clear the runway for landing 695 00:27:15,935 --> 00:27:17,401 because I can't find any quiet 696 00:27:17,403 --> 00:27:21,071 because some idiot resident keeps talking to me! 697 00:27:23,643 --> 00:27:25,943 [ Papers rustling ] 698 00:27:25,944 --> 00:27:28,244 ¶ Let it grow around ¶ I shouldn't have said that. 699 00:27:28,247 --> 00:27:31,649 I didn't mean it. I'm tired, and I'm frustrated. 700 00:27:31,651 --> 00:27:33,684 I... 701 00:27:33,686 --> 00:27:35,753 I am so sorry. I just [Sighs] 702 00:27:37,690 --> 00:27:39,857 This tumor is making me crazy. 703 00:27:39,859 --> 00:27:41,925 Edwards. 704 00:27:41,927 --> 00:27:44,228 As bad as you want to get that tumor, 705 00:27:44,230 --> 00:27:47,831 that's as bad as I want to watch you get that tumor. 706 00:27:47,833 --> 00:27:51,869 You're tired and frustrated and terrified, but guess what. 707 00:27:51,871 --> 00:27:52,970 I don't give a damn. 708 00:27:52,972 --> 00:27:55,673 You're supposed to be my mentor. 709 00:27:55,675 --> 00:27:58,008 You are my mentor. 710 00:27:58,010 --> 00:28:03,047 I believe in you, I look up to you, I want to be you. 711 00:28:03,049 --> 00:28:05,049 That's an enormous responsibility, 712 00:28:05,051 --> 00:28:06,984 so don't call me names. 713 00:28:06,986 --> 00:28:11,422 And stop pouting because you don't understand what to do. 714 00:28:11,424 --> 00:28:15,993 Be worthy of being believed in, of being looked up to. 715 00:28:15,995 --> 00:28:17,928 Or if you can't actually be worthy, 716 00:28:17,930 --> 00:28:19,963 if I am actually wasting my time, 717 00:28:19,965 --> 00:28:22,866 if there is nothing about you that is special or wise, 718 00:28:22,868 --> 00:28:25,402 for god's sake, 719 00:28:25,403 --> 00:28:27,937 at least have the decency to pretend that there is. 720 00:28:27,940 --> 00:28:31,041 Get it together, Dr. Shepherd. 721 00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:36,246 ¶ Let it grow around ¶ 722 00:28:36,248 --> 00:28:39,983 ¶ my fee-e-e-e-t ¶ 723 00:28:39,985 --> 00:28:41,919 [ sighs ] ¶ ooh ¶ 724 00:28:41,921 --> 00:28:44,888 ¶ let it grow around ¶ 725 00:28:44,890 --> 00:28:48,859 get it together, Dr. Shepherd. 726 00:28:48,861 --> 00:28:52,963 ¶ My fee-e-e-e-t ¶ 727 00:28:52,965 --> 00:28:55,432 Dr. Herman: [ Laughs ] ¶ ooh ¶ 728 00:28:55,434 --> 00:28:57,034 ¶ let it grow around ¶ 729 00:28:57,036 --> 00:28:59,036 [ laughs ] 730 00:28:59,038 --> 00:29:03,340 ¶ My fee-e-e-e-t ¶ 731 00:29:13,385 --> 00:29:15,352 [ cellphone chiming, vibrating ] 732 00:29:16,422 --> 00:29:18,255 [ Laughter, indistinct conversations ] 733 00:29:19,925 --> 00:29:21,458 Okay, bye. 734 00:29:21,460 --> 00:29:23,894 Bye. 735 00:29:25,965 --> 00:29:28,832 Hey. Um, how are you? 736 00:29:28,834 --> 00:29:31,368 Uh, good. How's Dr. Herman? Is she good? Is everything good? 737 00:29:31,370 --> 00:29:33,470 Yeah, I mean, she's killing me with back-to-back surgeries but... 738 00:29:33,472 --> 00:29:35,539 [ chuckles ] Yeah, and Amelia's plan? You good with that? 739 00:29:35,541 --> 00:29:38,041 Callie, what are you... [ Sighs ] What? 740 00:29:38,043 --> 00:29:39,877 I'm not... I'm just checking in, okay? 741 00:29:39,879 --> 00:29:44,081 I'm just... Seeing how you are and, uh, how, um... 742 00:29:44,083 --> 00:29:45,916 Callie? Well, it just seems like 743 00:29:45,918 --> 00:29:47,885 you and Dr. Herman are getting along really, really well, 744 00:29:47,887 --> 00:29:49,920 and you used to complain that she was killing you, 745 00:29:49,922 --> 00:29:51,355 but now you're happy that she's killing you, 746 00:29:51,357 --> 00:29:53,056 and it seems like you really, really like her. 747 00:29:53,058 --> 00:29:55,058 I do. [ Chuckles ] Actually, I do. She's great. 748 00:29:55,060 --> 00:29:57,060 She's... I mean, she's amazing. And she's sick. 749 00:29:57,062 --> 00:29:59,463 So, I-I worry. Amelia's got it covered. 750 00:29:59,465 --> 00:30:01,932 She's gonna be fine. I-I worry about you. 751 00:30:01,934 --> 00:30:03,267 I know I shouldn't. 752 00:30:03,269 --> 00:30:06,470 I know it's none of my business, but, uh, old habits. 753 00:30:06,472 --> 00:30:09,072 Well, that's, um... 754 00:30:09,074 --> 00:30:10,174 Thanks. 755 00:30:10,176 --> 00:30:12,109 [ Cellphone chimes, vibrates ] 756 00:30:12,111 --> 00:30:14,378 Oh, I-I got to go. Okay, okay. 757 00:30:14,380 --> 00:30:15,412 Man: Wow, that's tall. 758 00:30:15,414 --> 00:30:17,447 Woman: Yeah. Really big. 759 00:30:20,986 --> 00:30:23,887 Just so you know, the auditorium is packed. 760 00:30:23,889 --> 00:30:26,156 The fire Marshall actually made me move a bunch of people 761 00:30:26,158 --> 00:30:27,324 out to an overflow room. 762 00:30:30,062 --> 00:30:31,829 Amelia. 763 00:30:31,831 --> 00:30:33,397 Just give me a minute. 764 00:30:33,399 --> 00:30:34,898 Amelia. Shh! 765 00:30:34,900 --> 00:30:36,166 Hang on. 766 00:30:39,238 --> 00:30:41,038 You can talk to me. 767 00:30:41,040 --> 00:30:43,006 You're wound pretty tight. 768 00:30:43,008 --> 00:30:46,410 I just want you to know you can talk to me. 769 00:30:48,080 --> 00:30:49,246 [ Sighs ] 770 00:30:51,083 --> 00:30:53,550 My whole career, I have been the other Dr. Shepherd. 771 00:30:55,120 --> 00:30:59,289 He's the real one. I'm the other one. 772 00:30:59,291 --> 00:31:03,193 Right now, this plan of mine is theoretical. 773 00:31:03,195 --> 00:31:04,928 It's just talk. 774 00:31:04,930 --> 00:31:06,497 But at some point, 775 00:31:06,498 --> 00:31:08,065 I am going to slice into Dr. Herman's brain, 776 00:31:08,067 --> 00:31:11,001 and I have this sick feeling 777 00:31:11,003 --> 00:31:14,037 that when I face that tumor, 778 00:31:14,039 --> 00:31:18,976 I will discover that I am not just the other Dr. Shepherd... 779 00:31:22,081 --> 00:31:24,948 I'm the wrong Dr. Shepherd. 780 00:31:24,950 --> 00:31:27,618 [ Breathes deeply ] 781 00:31:31,290 --> 00:31:33,090 Hey. 782 00:31:33,092 --> 00:31:36,193 911? What's going on? 783 00:31:38,998 --> 00:31:41,098 Look, I know you've been having me take the lead so I can learn, 784 00:31:41,100 --> 00:31:42,366 but you need to handle this case. 785 00:31:42,368 --> 00:31:43,934 Why would I do that? Because it's emergent, 786 00:31:43,936 --> 00:31:45,569 and I've never tried cutting umbilical bands. 787 00:31:45,571 --> 00:31:47,271 First time for everything. Well... [ Sighs ] 788 00:31:47,273 --> 00:31:48,605 Listen to me, okay? 789 00:31:48,607 --> 00:31:50,073 I'm not ready to take this over yet. 790 00:31:50,075 --> 00:31:51,508 Doesn't matter. 791 00:31:51,510 --> 00:31:53,644 Stop! Stop! 792 00:31:53,646 --> 00:31:56,146 You... [ Stammers ] You're not hearing me. 793 00:31:56,148 --> 00:31:57,648 It does matter. I'm not ready. 794 00:31:57,650 --> 00:31:59,683 And you think I am? 795 00:31:59,685 --> 00:32:02,085 You think this is easy for me? 796 00:32:02,087 --> 00:32:03,253 You think I'm ready? 797 00:32:03,255 --> 00:32:07,925 I was fine. I got fine with dying. 798 00:32:07,927 --> 00:32:10,193 And then you infected me with your stupid... 799 00:32:10,195 --> 00:32:13,931 With Shepherd and her plan and your stupid hope. 800 00:32:13,933 --> 00:32:16,667 [ Voice breaking ] And now it's harder than ever 801 00:32:16,669 --> 00:32:19,937 to hand all this over. 802 00:32:19,939 --> 00:32:21,305 I don't want to. 803 00:32:21,307 --> 00:32:23,941 I'm scared to. 804 00:32:23,943 --> 00:32:26,143 And [Sighs] I'm scared to let go of it, 805 00:32:26,145 --> 00:32:29,479 and it's all your fault, so... 806 00:32:29,481 --> 00:32:32,382 I think the very least you could do is deserve it. 807 00:32:32,384 --> 00:32:35,352 Take over, do well, make me not regret it. 808 00:32:35,354 --> 00:32:36,586 Can you do that? 809 00:32:37,589 --> 00:32:39,156 Please? 810 00:32:39,959 --> 00:32:41,491 Amelia: This is the part 811 00:32:41,493 --> 00:32:44,094 where things get a little fast and furious. 812 00:32:44,096 --> 00:32:47,097 It is arguably the most dangerous, 813 00:32:47,099 --> 00:32:50,634 most precarious portion of the operation. 814 00:32:50,636 --> 00:32:53,570 It also needs to happen the fastest. 815 00:32:53,572 --> 00:32:57,574 Every step, every move before this 816 00:32:57,576 --> 00:32:59,509 has laid the groundwork for this very moment, 817 00:32:59,511 --> 00:33:02,746 the moment where I place the radioactive seeds. 818 00:33:02,748 --> 00:33:04,614 It requires precision... 819 00:33:04,616 --> 00:33:06,984 I just need to slip these shears under the band. 820 00:33:06,986 --> 00:33:09,286 And accuracy and speed... 821 00:33:09,288 --> 00:33:12,022 Things that do not go together well. 822 00:33:12,024 --> 00:33:13,523 [ Sighs ] I can't get the last band. 823 00:33:13,525 --> 00:33:15,158 This grip's not flexible enough. 824 00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:17,060 Dr. Herman: Can you coax it through? 825 00:33:17,062 --> 00:33:19,629 Mm. It's not... no. It won't give. 826 00:33:19,631 --> 00:33:21,598 You have to cut that last band. I know. 827 00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:24,434 Have you tried a smaller scissor? Mm. It's not the problem. 828 00:33:24,436 --> 00:33:28,138 Imagine picking up little grains of salt 829 00:33:28,140 --> 00:33:30,007 while wearing oven mitts. 830 00:33:30,009 --> 00:33:33,643 That is what I'm doing inside somebody's brain. 831 00:33:33,645 --> 00:33:35,479 Hand me a glove. What? 832 00:33:35,481 --> 00:33:37,180 Somebody hand me a glove. Scissors. 833 00:33:37,182 --> 00:33:39,516 There's this thing that we used to do in peds. 834 00:33:39,518 --> 00:33:40,751 I think it'll work. 835 00:33:40,753 --> 00:33:42,586 I just need a more flexible opening, 836 00:33:42,588 --> 00:33:44,087 and I can make it out of a glove. 837 00:33:44,089 --> 00:33:45,522 That's not in my notes, Robbins. 838 00:33:53,766 --> 00:33:55,298 [ Monitor beeping ] 839 00:33:57,369 --> 00:34:00,270 Are you serious? It's gonna work. 840 00:34:00,272 --> 00:34:03,106 But once I do it, 841 00:34:03,108 --> 00:34:07,044 once I place the final seed, 842 00:34:07,046 --> 00:34:09,312 well... 843 00:34:09,314 --> 00:34:11,448 It's smooth sailing. 844 00:34:11,450 --> 00:34:13,283 Ha! Did you see that?! 845 00:34:13,285 --> 00:34:17,120 It worked! It... it... It absolutely worked! 846 00:34:20,059 --> 00:34:22,359 'Night, 'night, tumor baby. 847 00:34:22,361 --> 00:34:25,629 It has been lovely, 848 00:34:25,631 --> 00:34:27,097 but we are done. 849 00:34:27,099 --> 00:34:30,767 [ Cheers and applause ] 850 00:34:37,609 --> 00:34:40,844 Amelia: I'd like to open things up to a few questions. 851 00:34:40,846 --> 00:34:42,412 Yes. 852 00:34:42,414 --> 00:34:43,780 Are you nervous? 853 00:34:43,782 --> 00:34:46,383 Uh... 854 00:34:46,385 --> 00:34:48,852 I'd be crazy not to be. 855 00:34:48,854 --> 00:34:51,855 Yes, of course I'm nervous, but I'm also very excited. 856 00:34:51,857 --> 00:34:54,291 This is history. 857 00:34:54,293 --> 00:34:57,561 This surgery will be history. 858 00:34:57,563 --> 00:35:00,464 How could I not be excited about that? 859 00:35:00,466 --> 00:35:04,234 [ Shears snip, monitor beeping ] Excellent, excellent. 860 00:35:04,236 --> 00:35:05,869 You should be very proud of yourself. 861 00:35:05,871 --> 00:35:08,638 [ Chuckles ] 862 00:35:08,640 --> 00:35:09,773 Close up now. 863 00:35:09,775 --> 00:35:12,309 Where are you going? 864 00:35:12,311 --> 00:35:15,278 Richard: What you're describing is seven different surgeries 865 00:35:15,280 --> 00:35:18,782 all using the hardest techniques you've ever tried. 866 00:35:18,784 --> 00:35:22,752 How long do you anticipate the entire surgery actually taking? 867 00:35:22,754 --> 00:35:24,888 18 hours... [ Audience murmuring ] 868 00:35:24,890 --> 00:35:26,656 give or take some hours. 869 00:35:26,658 --> 00:35:28,225 [ Laughter ] 870 00:35:28,226 --> 00:35:29,793 Jo: Uh, follow-up question... 871 00:35:29,794 --> 00:35:31,361 Do you need a second resident on the case? 872 00:35:31,363 --> 00:35:34,764 Uh, not unless Edwards is planning to bail on me. 873 00:35:34,766 --> 00:35:36,666 You planning to bail, Edwards? 874 00:35:36,668 --> 00:35:38,135 No, ma'am. 875 00:35:44,276 --> 00:35:46,510 Yes, in the back. 876 00:35:46,512 --> 00:35:48,278 Callie: Will you have help? 877 00:35:48,280 --> 00:35:50,914 Um... Sorry? 878 00:35:50,916 --> 00:35:52,749 Well, I'm just, uh... 879 00:35:52,750 --> 00:35:54,583 Well, are you gonna be doing this whole surgery yourself, 880 00:35:54,586 --> 00:35:56,419 or is Derek... Uh, Dr. Shepherd coming? 881 00:35:56,421 --> 00:35:59,256 I'm... I'm just... I'm just asking. 882 00:35:59,258 --> 00:36:01,591 I mean, given everything, is it a good idea? 883 00:36:01,593 --> 00:36:03,426 Should you be doing this yourself? 884 00:36:03,428 --> 00:36:04,861 [ Audience murmurs ] 885 00:36:04,863 --> 00:36:08,698 Well, I am, so... 886 00:36:10,836 --> 00:36:12,335 Next question. 887 00:36:12,337 --> 00:36:14,204 [ Indistinct whispering ] 888 00:36:20,312 --> 00:36:22,946 I need you to scan me. 889 00:36:22,948 --> 00:36:27,851 Something's happening. I'm experiencing symptoms... 890 00:36:27,853 --> 00:36:32,189 Fuzziness around the edges, a little like, uh, blinders, 891 00:36:32,191 --> 00:36:37,827 and it's, uh, dark... darker than it should be, I think. 892 00:36:40,365 --> 00:36:43,700 Okay. 893 00:36:43,702 --> 00:36:46,303 Let's go. 894 00:37:02,187 --> 00:37:04,487 [ Machinery whirring ] 895 00:37:09,728 --> 00:37:11,995 [ Monitor beeping ] 896 00:37:18,837 --> 00:37:20,804 [ Sighs ] [ Monitor beeping ] 897 00:37:20,806 --> 00:37:22,339 Bailey? Where's Dr. Herman? 898 00:37:22,341 --> 00:37:23,807 She stepped out. What do you need? 899 00:37:23,809 --> 00:37:26,243 Uh... It's glenda castillo. 900 00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:30,013 Hey, I need Herman right now. 901 00:37:30,015 --> 00:37:31,748 Glenda castillo's baby is in distress, 902 00:37:31,750 --> 00:37:33,316 and glenda is severely hypertensive, 903 00:37:33,318 --> 00:37:34,684 showing signs of heart failure. 904 00:37:34,686 --> 00:37:36,753 We need to operate on her immediately, 905 00:37:36,755 --> 00:37:38,755 so if you could finish up... 906 00:37:38,757 --> 00:37:39,990 What are you doing? 907 00:37:39,992 --> 00:37:41,791 Why are you standing there? I... Arizona. 908 00:37:46,832 --> 00:37:47,864 Oh, god. 909 00:37:49,434 --> 00:37:50,567 It's time. 910 00:37:50,569 --> 00:37:52,969 Now? 911 00:37:56,908 --> 00:38:00,944 I'm gonna go... 912 00:38:00,946 --> 00:38:02,579 Get an O.R. ready. 913 00:38:02,581 --> 00:38:04,648 Okay. 914 00:38:04,650 --> 00:38:05,915 Okay. 915 00:38:07,819 --> 00:38:09,386 You ready f-for this? 916 00:38:11,990 --> 00:38:13,890 Mm-hmm. 917 00:38:14,793 --> 00:38:16,026 A-Amelia. 918 00:38:17,796 --> 00:38:19,729 I'll get an O.R. prepped. 919 00:38:20,966 --> 00:38:22,899 You'll inform the patient? 920 00:38:29,508 --> 00:38:31,941 Dr. Herman: Oh. Robbins. 921 00:38:31,943 --> 00:38:33,510 [ Grunts ] Surgery's all finished? 922 00:38:33,512 --> 00:38:34,944 Yeah. 923 00:38:34,946 --> 00:38:37,380 [ Sighs ] 924 00:38:37,382 --> 00:38:39,015 [ Breathes deeply ] 925 00:38:39,017 --> 00:38:40,984 I see. 926 00:38:40,986 --> 00:38:42,686 Shepherd's prepping the O.R.? 927 00:38:42,688 --> 00:38:44,788 Yes. 928 00:38:44,790 --> 00:38:47,224 If I had to guess, 929 00:38:47,225 --> 00:38:49,659 I'd say the tumor's invaded the optic chiasm. 930 00:38:52,064 --> 00:38:53,963 Ah. 931 00:38:53,965 --> 00:38:55,598 My chariot awaits. 932 00:38:57,936 --> 00:38:59,569 A little privacy, guys? 933 00:39:02,774 --> 00:39:05,942 Did you, uh, need me for something... a patient? 934 00:39:05,944 --> 00:39:07,610 Um, yeah. 935 00:39:07,612 --> 00:39:09,079 Glenda castillo's baby has hydrops. 936 00:39:09,081 --> 00:39:11,481 Mom is mirroring, and she's going into chf. 937 00:39:11,483 --> 00:39:13,550 Wow. 938 00:39:13,552 --> 00:39:15,885 Looks like a big day for both of us. 939 00:39:15,887 --> 00:39:18,054 What you need to do first 940 00:39:18,056 --> 00:39:21,024 is try to embolize the vessels fetoscopically. 941 00:39:21,026 --> 00:39:23,426 Make sure her blood pressure is stabilized. 942 00:39:23,428 --> 00:39:25,729 She has you. 943 00:39:25,731 --> 00:39:26,930 Amelia has you. 944 00:39:26,932 --> 00:39:29,399 This is the point where you trust her, okay? 945 00:39:29,401 --> 00:39:32,068 Don't go in without checking glenda's platelet counts 946 00:39:32,070 --> 00:39:34,070 and crossmatching. 947 00:39:34,071 --> 00:39:36,071 This is the point where you trust her, okay? 948 00:39:37,809 --> 00:39:39,843 All set. 949 00:39:39,845 --> 00:39:41,511 Don't let glenda's platelet count drop below... 950 00:39:41,513 --> 00:39:42,812 100. I know. 951 00:39:42,814 --> 00:39:44,481 Will you tie me? Yeah. 952 00:39:45,917 --> 00:39:47,450 [ Sighs ] 953 00:39:51,757 --> 00:39:54,057 [ Both breathe deeply ] 954 00:39:54,059 --> 00:39:58,027 [ Hollow wood's "seasons" plays ] 955 00:40:02,768 --> 00:40:05,034 [ Sighs ] 956 00:40:10,909 --> 00:40:12,142 Let's do this. 957 00:40:37,936 --> 00:40:39,202 Dr. Herman: I never placed much value 958 00:40:39,204 --> 00:40:40,904 in wondering about an afterlife. 959 00:40:40,906 --> 00:40:42,972 My concern was always this life, 960 00:40:42,974 --> 00:40:44,774 what would I do with it? 961 00:40:44,776 --> 00:40:46,209 How would I make my mark? 962 00:40:46,211 --> 00:40:49,078 Be sure, be fast. You don't have half the time you imagine. 963 00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:51,614 Try to ablate all the vessels, but don't wait too long. 964 00:40:51,616 --> 00:40:52,882 Don't be afraid to make that call. 965 00:40:52,884 --> 00:40:54,851 If she's awake, she'll tell you for the 15th time 966 00:40:54,853 --> 00:40:56,052 to save her child's life before hers. 967 00:40:56,054 --> 00:40:58,455 Listen to her, let her say her piece, 968 00:40:58,456 --> 00:41:00,857 then you do what needs to be done. I don't think... I don't... I don't know... 969 00:41:00,859 --> 00:41:02,225 [ sighs ] I don't know if I can do this. 970 00:41:02,227 --> 00:41:03,760 I can't. I can't do this. You can. 971 00:41:03,762 --> 00:41:05,795 Nicole. You will. 972 00:41:07,032 --> 00:41:09,566 Let's get you inside now, okay? 973 00:41:09,568 --> 00:41:11,835 I wanted to break new ground. 974 00:41:11,837 --> 00:41:16,139 ¶ Light turned to dark ¶ I wanted to leave a legacy. 975 00:41:16,141 --> 00:41:21,978 I wanted my life, my brain, my existence... 976 00:41:21,980 --> 00:41:24,547 ¶ But death can't take you away ¶ 977 00:41:24,549 --> 00:41:27,016 to mean something. 978 00:41:29,955 --> 00:41:31,888 ¶ I'll take these memories ¶ [ Air hissing ] 979 00:41:31,890 --> 00:41:33,690 Hey, hey, hey, you're gonna be fine, okay? 980 00:41:33,692 --> 00:41:36,125 Amelia's got this. You've got this. 981 00:41:36,127 --> 00:41:39,128 The thing that I never really thought about, though, 982 00:41:39,130 --> 00:41:41,865 the thing I never really wrapped my brain around 983 00:41:41,867 --> 00:41:43,199 until now was... 984 00:41:43,201 --> 00:41:44,667 [ Breathes deeply ] 985 00:41:44,669 --> 00:41:46,536 ¶ And sail away ¶ 986 00:41:46,538 --> 00:41:47,704 wait, Robbins. 987 00:41:47,706 --> 00:41:49,072 No. 988 00:41:49,074 --> 00:41:50,507 Don't you dare. 989 00:41:50,509 --> 00:41:52,175 Don't you dare say it, Nicole. 990 00:41:52,177 --> 00:41:55,211 In order to do that, in order to be remembered, 991 00:41:55,213 --> 00:41:59,015 in order to leave something significant behind... 992 00:41:59,017 --> 00:42:00,683 Time to go. 993 00:42:14,566 --> 00:42:15,965 [ Air hissing ] 994 00:42:15,967 --> 00:42:18,301 you have to leave.