1 00:03:38,551 --> 00:03:40,075 What are you talking about? 2 00:03:40,153 --> 00:03:42,747 Alan, don't get so uptight! 3 00:03:42,822 --> 00:03:45,188 You're telling me you don't want to do this anymore. 4 00:03:45,258 --> 00:03:48,318 -That's not what I'm saying. -Then what are you saying? 5 00:03:50,597 --> 00:03:51,689 Nice. 6 00:03:58,137 --> 00:04:02,130 What is it with this morbid fixation of yours? 7 00:04:02,508 --> 00:04:04,066 You've got talent, Alan. 8 00:04:04,143 --> 00:04:08,739 I hate to see you squander it with these adolescent monster movie images. 9 00:04:11,050 --> 00:04:13,518 Why this obsession with death? 10 00:04:14,153 --> 00:04:16,178 Everybody does life. 11 00:04:16,589 --> 00:04:20,150 Maybe you haven't noticed, my little deadly nightshade... 12 00:04:20,560 --> 00:04:24,291 but it's a brand new age, time to celebrate life... 13 00:04:24,430 --> 00:04:27,160 the love and the beauty of the world around us. 14 00:04:27,233 --> 00:04:29,667 So why don't you draw what you see? 15 00:04:30,370 --> 00:04:31,462 I do. 16 00:04:32,438 --> 00:04:34,338 Yeah, more is the pity. 17 00:04:35,375 --> 00:04:37,775 Life is beautiful, Alan. 18 00:04:38,378 --> 00:04:41,472 This gruesome stuff isn't going to get you anywhere. 19 00:04:41,547 --> 00:04:43,913 That's what my grandmother says. 20 00:04:46,119 --> 00:04:49,418 And a happy Hallow's Eve to you, my friend. 21 00:04:59,118 --> 00:05:00,018 ###### 22 00:05:00,033 --> 00:05:03,833 Tricky Dick, your war is sick! 23 00:05:04,437 --> 00:05:06,428 Hell, no, we won't go! 24 00:05:07,329 --> 00:05:09,429 University Of Maine 25 00:05:09,430 --> 00:05:13,430 University Of Maine October 30, 1969 26 00:05:15,114 --> 00:05:18,140 I can't believe you're breaking up with me on my birthday. 27 00:05:18,217 --> 00:05:20,447 I'm not breaking up with you. 28 00:05:20,520 --> 00:05:24,980 God, you're being so Leave it to Beaver about this. 29 00:05:25,058 --> 00:05:28,516 I'm sorry, Jessica, but I love you. I thought you loved me. 30 00:05:28,628 --> 00:05:29,720 I do. 31 00:05:30,963 --> 00:05:32,555 I love everyone. 32 00:05:32,865 --> 00:05:35,390 -You want to. -No such luck. 33 00:05:37,337 --> 00:05:40,431 Quit playing the Prince of Darkness and kiss me. 34 00:05:40,807 --> 00:05:43,105 I can't. Not now. 35 00:05:44,944 --> 00:05:46,434 Suit yourself. 36 00:05:56,022 --> 00:05:57,546 Happy birthday. 37 00:05:58,324 --> 00:06:01,487 Yeah. Happy birthday to me. 38 00:06:49,108 --> 00:06:51,008 Happy fucking birthday. 39 00:07:00,286 --> 00:07:01,776 Fuck you, too! 40 00:08:47,193 --> 00:08:48,785 Good idea, Alan. 41 00:08:49,762 --> 00:08:52,595 You know, they don't appreciate you. 42 00:08:54,433 --> 00:08:57,095 Show them how important you are. 43 00:08:58,738 --> 00:09:00,365 Come on, Alan... 44 00:09:01,407 --> 00:09:04,001 you know it's beautiful over here. 45 00:09:05,678 --> 00:09:09,341 Just grit your teeth and cut! 46 00:09:13,686 --> 00:09:15,017 That's it. 47 00:09:16,188 --> 00:09:17,780 Show them, Alan. 48 00:09:19,525 --> 00:09:20,685 Do it! 49 00:09:22,194 --> 00:09:23,252 Cut! 50 00:09:41,781 --> 00:09:43,248 Surprise! 51 00:09:44,016 --> 00:09:45,540 Happy birthday! 52 00:09:49,221 --> 00:09:51,951 Why don't you guys give us some privacy? 53 00:09:56,829 --> 00:09:58,558 What are you doing? 54 00:10:10,209 --> 00:10:13,201 -Are you okay? -I'm fine. 55 00:10:15,314 --> 00:10:18,374 I am so sorry, Alan. 56 00:10:21,587 --> 00:10:23,782 You know how much I love you. 57 00:10:30,229 --> 00:10:31,321 Damn! 58 00:10:31,831 --> 00:10:34,800 I guess lunch is gonna have to wait until round two. 59 00:10:38,871 --> 00:10:41,465 That was a stupid fucking thing to do. 60 00:10:42,375 --> 00:10:45,276 Jesus, Alan, I was only kidding. 61 00:10:46,646 --> 00:10:49,547 I was trying to set you up for your surprise party. 62 00:10:51,017 --> 00:10:53,281 Guess I surprised you instead. 63 00:10:54,587 --> 00:10:55,815 No shit. 64 00:10:59,091 --> 00:11:02,891 Suicide is a very selfish act, you know. 65 00:11:03,696 --> 00:11:06,995 Shit, one more life or death seems pretty insignificant... 66 00:11:07,066 --> 00:11:09,432 in the greater planetary scheme of things. 67 00:11:09,502 --> 00:11:11,766 It makes a big difference to me. 68 00:11:12,672 --> 00:11:14,833 Death isn't glamorous, Alan. 69 00:11:16,075 --> 00:11:19,738 I guess I don't really know you. 70 00:11:20,713 --> 00:11:23,876 You, and about four billion other people on the planet. 71 00:11:23,949 --> 00:11:27,112 Don't give me that misunderstood artist bullshit. 72 00:11:27,687 --> 00:11:30,747 We all have problems. We deal with them. 73 00:11:32,258 --> 00:11:34,283 You know, you are whining. 74 00:11:35,461 --> 00:11:38,760 You're being kind of a creep, to tell you the truth. 75 00:11:40,766 --> 00:11:42,131 I'm sorry. 76 00:11:43,002 --> 00:11:46,062 I'm just in my "poor me" stage. 77 00:11:47,139 --> 00:11:48,868 Call me an asshole. 78 00:11:48,974 --> 00:11:50,805 Are you ever going to pull... 79 00:11:50,876 --> 00:11:54,243 such a stupid, cruel, selfish stunt like that again? 80 00:11:54,313 --> 00:11:56,406 -No. -Promise? 81 00:11:56,615 --> 00:11:58,515 Promise. Cross my heart. 82 00:11:59,552 --> 00:12:01,213 Now, who loves you? 83 00:12:01,854 --> 00:12:04,118 -My mom. -Who else? 84 00:12:06,125 --> 00:12:07,490 Baby Jesus? 85 00:12:07,960 --> 00:12:09,552 Funny. Who else? 86 00:12:11,297 --> 00:12:13,458 -You? -Yeah. 87 00:12:15,267 --> 00:12:17,895 But I guess you want proof of that, don't you? 88 00:12:18,070 --> 00:12:19,560 Proof is good. 89 00:12:21,874 --> 00:12:24,172 It's a little late, but... 90 00:12:26,545 --> 00:12:28,775 -happy birthday. -Thanks. 91 00:12:29,915 --> 00:12:31,644 I like the artwork. 92 00:12:33,953 --> 00:12:35,477 Let's see here. 93 00:12:36,422 --> 00:12:40,859 "Rock 'n' Roll Revival, Varsity Stadium in Toronto... 94 00:12:40,926 --> 00:12:44,020 "starring John Lennon and the Plastic Ono Band." 95 00:12:44,096 --> 00:12:46,394 Jessie, where did you get these? 96 00:12:49,201 --> 00:12:52,227 How do you cut yourself shaving in a fucking bathtub? 97 00:12:52,304 --> 00:12:55,762 That's just fucking clumsy. Who shaves in a bathtub anyway? 98 00:12:55,841 --> 00:12:57,570 Only chicks take baths, man. 99 00:12:57,643 --> 00:12:58,974 -Shut up, Hector. -Shut up? 100 00:12:59,044 --> 00:13:02,138 Show him the picture you took. He sold it to the school paper. 101 00:13:02,214 --> 00:13:04,705 -Got $25, man. -You going to split it with me? 102 00:13:05,951 --> 00:13:08,317 -It is my naked ass in the paper. -Well.... 103 00:13:08,387 --> 00:13:11,379 -Just fucking with you, man. Lighten up. -See? I told you. 104 00:13:11,457 --> 00:13:14,449 He ain't depressed if he's fucking with you. It was an accident. 105 00:13:14,527 --> 00:13:17,291 Look, you don't accidentally slice your wrists. 106 00:13:17,363 --> 00:13:20,992 Hector Passmore here passed out as soon as he saw a little blood in the tub. 107 00:13:21,066 --> 00:13:24,467 I didn't pass out, I just felt a little woozy, is all. 108 00:13:24,537 --> 00:13:27,529 I'm a pacifist, man. I don't dig the sight of spilled blood. 109 00:13:27,606 --> 00:13:31,940 -Tell Archie it was an accident. -I'd really rather not talk about it right now. 110 00:13:32,178 --> 00:13:33,440 See? 111 00:13:33,712 --> 00:13:35,771 Whoa! Asshole! 112 00:13:38,651 --> 00:13:41,211 Can I take a picture of your stitches? 113 00:13:41,687 --> 00:13:44,121 Would you guys mind getting the car for me? 114 00:13:44,190 --> 00:13:47,125 Right, we'll get the car. 115 00:13:53,432 --> 00:13:55,457 Can Alan come out and play? 116 00:13:59,505 --> 00:14:00,995 Are you okay? 117 00:14:02,908 --> 00:14:05,741 You weren't just setting me up, were you? 118 00:14:06,345 --> 00:14:09,075 -Alan.... -It's okay, I'm not going to... 119 00:14:09,748 --> 00:14:12,114 rip out my stitches or anything. 120 00:14:14,386 --> 00:14:16,149 It's true, isn't it? 121 00:14:16,455 --> 00:14:18,446 I care about you so much. 122 00:14:18,924 --> 00:14:21,324 Then tell me the truth. I'll be okay. 123 00:14:21,393 --> 00:14:24,191 I'm just trying to evolve here. 124 00:14:26,765 --> 00:14:29,393 It's like you have a wall around you. 125 00:14:29,935 --> 00:14:32,597 Like a moat to keep out your enemies. 126 00:14:34,940 --> 00:14:36,669 I'm not your enemy. 127 00:14:39,078 --> 00:14:40,807 I'm sorry, Jessica. 128 00:14:44,283 --> 00:14:46,251 I figure we get fucked up... 129 00:14:46,318 --> 00:14:49,549 go out, swipe a couple bags of candy from trick-or-treaters... 130 00:14:49,622 --> 00:14:52,887 then check out the Halloween party at Kappa Gamma Nu. 131 00:14:52,958 --> 00:14:55,756 -Far out. -Who wants to go to Toronto? 132 00:14:56,195 --> 00:14:59,596 As long as I can hold on to my student deferment, I'm cool right here. 133 00:14:59,665 --> 00:15:03,157 -They got Halloween in Canada? -I don't know, but they got this. 134 00:15:03,235 --> 00:15:04,566 What is it? 135 00:15:04,637 --> 00:15:07,265 Only John Lennon and the Plastic Ono Band. 136 00:15:07,673 --> 00:15:10,233 -No way! -Out-fucking-standing! 137 00:15:10,309 --> 00:15:13,176 -Where'd you get them? -From Jessica, for my birthday. 138 00:15:13,245 --> 00:15:14,872 Isn't she going? 139 00:15:15,881 --> 00:15:16,905 No. 140 00:15:16,982 --> 00:15:20,418 -You're okay to travel, right? I mean.... -Man, he's okay! 141 00:15:20,552 --> 00:15:23,749 I told you it was an accident! Tell him you're okay, Alan. 142 00:15:23,822 --> 00:15:28,452 If everyone wants to know so bad that I'm all right I'll take out an ad in The Voice. 143 00:15:28,560 --> 00:15:31,461 John "I am the fucking walrus" Lennon! 144 00:15:31,697 --> 00:15:34,165 -Can I touch them? -Don't let him, he's fucked up. 145 00:15:34,233 --> 00:15:37,293 -So are you! -Yeah, but I can maintain better than you. 146 00:15:37,503 --> 00:15:38,595 Shit! 147 00:15:42,408 --> 00:15:45,241 -You only got two tickets? -Dibs. I got the car. I'm driving. 148 00:15:45,311 --> 00:15:46,573 I got the tickets. 149 00:15:46,645 --> 00:15:49,705 We'll all chip in and buy the third ticket when we get there. 150 00:15:49,782 --> 00:15:51,340 When do we go? 151 00:15:53,552 --> 00:15:55,110 How about tonight? 152 00:15:55,754 --> 00:15:56,982 Radical! 153 00:16:02,561 --> 00:16:05,428 You think the other Beatles might show up? 154 00:16:06,365 --> 00:16:09,596 Lennon's there going, "This is an oldie, but a goodie..." 155 00:16:09,668 --> 00:16:12,159 and rips into I Want to Hold Your Hand or something... 156 00:16:12,237 --> 00:16:14,603 and Paul, George, and Ringo walk on stage... 157 00:16:14,673 --> 00:16:17,073 and everybody just goes fucking apeshit! 158 00:16:17,343 --> 00:16:21,336 As far as I'm concerned, it's anything-can-happen day. 159 00:16:22,381 --> 00:16:24,042 The Beatles, man! 160 00:16:26,518 --> 00:16:29,282 -You know what's going to be weird? -What? 161 00:16:29,421 --> 00:16:32,913 When they get old. What's it going to be like... 162 00:16:32,992 --> 00:16:36,223 when Lennon and Hendrix and Janis... 163 00:16:36,295 --> 00:16:39,594 and Jim Morrison and all the gods of rock 'n' roll are like... 164 00:16:39,665 --> 00:16:42,293 old and fat and bald and shit? 165 00:16:42,634 --> 00:16:45,102 lt'll be a world I don't want to live in. 166 00:16:45,504 --> 00:16:46,766 Amen, brother. 167 00:16:50,642 --> 00:16:54,738 Don't answer it. It's gonna be Jessica and she's gonna want her tickets back. 168 00:16:54,813 --> 00:16:58,010 -Don't be ridiculous. It is not. -It is. Don't answer! 169 00:16:58,117 --> 00:17:00,142 It's bad news, I know it. 170 00:17:01,620 --> 00:17:04,180 -Hello? -Hi, Alan. It's me. 171 00:17:04,723 --> 00:17:07,624 I'm sorry I said what I said. I love you. 172 00:17:08,160 --> 00:17:12,221 Let's run away to Toronto and forget about the rest of the world for a few days. 173 00:17:12,297 --> 00:17:14,458 Okay? Please? 174 00:17:16,435 --> 00:17:18,426 Please don't answer it. 175 00:17:21,540 --> 00:17:23,531 -Hello? -Alan Parker? 176 00:17:24,410 --> 00:17:25,741 That's right. 177 00:17:25,811 --> 00:17:29,178 This is Janey McCurdy. You know, next door to your mama? 178 00:17:30,282 --> 00:17:32,580 Hi, Mrs. McCurdy. 179 00:17:33,786 --> 00:17:35,754 What is it? Is my mom okay? 180 00:17:38,057 --> 00:17:41,151 It was a stroke. It happened in the restaurant. 181 00:17:42,127 --> 00:17:43,389 Oh, Jesus. 182 00:17:51,437 --> 00:17:55,339 I don't want you going off all halfcocked. The doctors think she'll be okay. 183 00:17:55,407 --> 00:17:57,466 -Who is it? -Shut up! 184 00:18:00,612 --> 00:18:02,739 Is she still in the hospital? 185 00:18:03,082 --> 00:18:05,516 Yes, and under the best of care. 186 00:18:06,118 --> 00:18:08,985 You are not going to Toronto with Cheech and Chong here... 187 00:18:09,054 --> 00:18:12,751 while your mom's lying in a hospital 120 miles away, maybe dying. 188 00:18:12,925 --> 00:18:15,655 When do you think you'll be coming down, Alan? Saturday? 189 00:18:23,969 --> 00:18:25,300 Tell her I'll be there tonight. 190 00:18:25,370 --> 00:18:26,496 -What? -No! 191 00:18:27,139 --> 00:18:29,539 Won't your mama be so happy to see you? 192 00:18:30,476 --> 00:18:31,875 Thanks. Bye. 193 00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:35,478 What is it? 194 00:18:36,915 --> 00:18:41,181 It's my mom. She's in the hospital down in Lewiston. She had a stroke. 195 00:18:41,653 --> 00:18:43,553 Shit. I'm sorry, Alan. 196 00:18:44,189 --> 00:18:45,656 What about Toronto? 197 00:18:45,724 --> 00:18:48,989 You guys go ahead. I got to make sure my mom's okay. 198 00:19:42,214 --> 00:19:43,511 Look, Ma! 199 00:20:29,428 --> 00:20:31,157 I got a gold star, Ma. 200 00:20:44,409 --> 00:20:46,377 What's the matter, Mama? 201 00:20:48,380 --> 00:20:50,177 Oh, baby. 202 00:20:51,083 --> 00:20:52,175 What? 203 00:20:55,420 --> 00:20:57,513 It's gonna be okay, sweet pea. 204 00:20:59,391 --> 00:21:01,154 Why are you crying? 205 00:21:04,229 --> 00:21:05,821 It's your daddy. 206 00:21:10,802 --> 00:21:14,932 A loving husband, a good father, a generous friend.... 207 00:21:18,510 --> 00:21:20,842 It's just you and me now, baby. 208 00:21:22,681 --> 00:21:26,310 Alan and Jean Parker against the world. 209 00:22:02,621 --> 00:22:03,645 No! 210 00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:51,699 -Thanks for the ride. -Not a problem, man. 211 00:22:51,770 --> 00:22:54,295 -Where you headed? -Down to Lewiston. 212 00:22:54,406 --> 00:22:56,533 I can take you up to Hampton Center, man. 213 00:22:56,608 --> 00:22:57,973 Far out. Thanks. 214 00:22:58,710 --> 00:23:01,178 -You want to get high? -No, that's okay. 215 00:23:02,981 --> 00:23:04,778 What are you, a narc? 216 00:23:05,550 --> 00:23:07,984 No, I'm not a narc. 217 00:23:08,253 --> 00:23:11,689 No, because if you're a narc, you'd have to say you're a narc, right? 218 00:23:11,757 --> 00:23:13,486 What's in Lewiston? 219 00:23:15,060 --> 00:23:17,028 I've gotta see my mom in the hospital. 220 00:23:17,095 --> 00:23:18,960 Shit. What is she, sick? 221 00:23:19,431 --> 00:23:22,628 No, she hangs out there, pulls tricks for a few extra bucks. 222 00:23:22,701 --> 00:23:24,328 Kind of a hobby. 223 00:23:25,170 --> 00:23:26,694 She had a stroke. 224 00:23:26,772 --> 00:23:29,502 That's a drag. My mom died in a hospital. 225 00:23:29,808 --> 00:23:33,437 Heavy shit. She had lung cancer. She weighed like 75 pounds when she died. 226 00:23:33,512 --> 00:23:36,640 Thanks for sharing that, asshole. I feel much better now. 227 00:23:36,715 --> 00:23:37,739 I'm sorry. 228 00:23:37,816 --> 00:23:40,341 Yeah, I ain't. She was a real DAR bitch, you know. 229 00:23:40,419 --> 00:23:43,718 Her and my dad really big on oppression. Sieg heil, that whole thing. 230 00:23:43,789 --> 00:23:46,622 Actually, my mom's Another Mother for Peace. 231 00:23:47,159 --> 00:23:50,253 Oh, that's cool. Were you in the service? 232 00:23:50,328 --> 00:23:53,354 No. Student deferment. You? 233 00:23:53,465 --> 00:23:56,263 Fuck, no, man. They tried to drag my ass to Vietnam. 234 00:23:56,334 --> 00:23:59,963 I'm not going down there, man. I'm not going to go get killed. I dig life. 235 00:24:00,038 --> 00:24:02,336 "Give peace a chance," right? 236 00:24:03,275 --> 00:24:07,143 I'll tell you what, pretty soon all the over-30s are going to be six feet under. 237 00:24:07,212 --> 00:24:10,272 Then we'll see. Did you go to Woodstock? 238 00:24:10,382 --> 00:24:12,646 -No. -You missed out, bro. 239 00:24:13,018 --> 00:24:16,647 Righteous weed, skinny-dipping, naked chicks. 240 00:24:16,755 --> 00:24:18,347 Here, take this. 241 00:24:38,977 --> 00:24:40,877 What the fuck was that? 242 00:24:44,449 --> 00:24:47,543 What a trip, man. Are you all right, brother? 243 00:24:49,454 --> 00:24:52,617 -What's with the wig? -Shit, man! 244 00:24:53,825 --> 00:24:55,156 Hey, man. Shit. 245 00:24:57,696 --> 00:24:59,459 -This yours? -Listen. 246 00:24:59,564 --> 00:25:03,330 You know, they called me a baby killer I'm no fucking baby killer. 247 00:25:03,435 --> 00:25:07,838 I'm not gonna be a part of that war machine. Look at me. I'm one of you. 248 00:25:08,373 --> 00:25:12,571 You're not one of me, you weekend hippie asshole. 249 00:25:13,278 --> 00:25:17,044 -And you're a shitty driver. -What kind of attitude is that? 250 00:25:18,517 --> 00:25:20,644 Where are you going, man? 251 00:25:22,888 --> 00:25:24,412 Where's that joint? 252 00:26:44,836 --> 00:26:45,928 Mom? 253 00:27:20,105 --> 00:27:22,198 What the fuck are you looking at? 254 00:28:29,841 --> 00:28:31,900 Come on, let's move along. 255 00:28:33,178 --> 00:28:34,338 Move along, please. 256 00:29:10,181 --> 00:29:12,274 Hey, Alan, you need a ride? 257 00:29:27,732 --> 00:29:29,324 What is it, hon? 258 00:29:33,404 --> 00:29:34,996 How did Dad die? 259 00:29:37,008 --> 00:29:40,102 He was killed in a car accident. You know that. 260 00:29:40,311 --> 00:29:43,178 Yeah, I know, but I never really knew how. 261 00:29:45,216 --> 00:29:46,877 How did it happen? 262 00:29:54,292 --> 00:29:58,228 He was coming home one night... 263 00:29:58,296 --> 00:30:01,265 from a meeting he had out in Castle Rock. 264 00:30:02,200 --> 00:30:04,430 And his car ran out of gas... 265 00:30:05,003 --> 00:30:06,800 on Route Two, you know... 266 00:30:07,972 --> 00:30:09,837 the middle of nowhere. 267 00:30:11,209 --> 00:30:13,643 He was just walking down the road... 268 00:30:14,078 --> 00:30:16,911 when someone just ran right into him. 269 00:30:19,551 --> 00:30:24,250 When they finally found your daddy, he was still holding on to the gas can. 270 00:30:36,234 --> 00:30:39,726 I honestly don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you. 271 00:30:41,840 --> 00:30:43,603 Do you remember him? 272 00:30:44,475 --> 00:30:46,033 Not so much. 273 00:30:47,745 --> 00:30:49,372 I wish you could. 274 00:30:49,781 --> 00:30:52,409 You're so much like him it scares me. 275 00:30:56,254 --> 00:30:59,382 You get on up to Orono and make me proud, okay? 276 00:31:02,594 --> 00:31:04,118 Be careful, Al. 277 00:31:09,334 --> 00:31:13,168 All right, son, let's perambulate along. Nothing to see here. 278 00:31:47,739 --> 00:31:48,899 Hello? 279 00:31:54,445 --> 00:31:56,072 What do you want? 280 00:32:01,619 --> 00:32:03,018 Who are you? 281 00:32:10,495 --> 00:32:11,553 Dad? 282 00:32:16,467 --> 00:32:18,492 She lied to you, you know. 283 00:32:58,242 --> 00:33:01,541 -Hop on in, son. It's bugger-cold out there. -Thanks. 284 00:33:15,693 --> 00:33:17,820 I'm heading on down to Bowdoinham. 285 00:33:19,797 --> 00:33:21,697 He trying to catch something? 286 00:33:22,266 --> 00:33:25,565 You know, my wife Aleka, bless her soul, she used to say... 287 00:33:25,770 --> 00:33:30,207 I would end up in a ditch with a knife in my back picking up hitchhikers. 288 00:33:30,274 --> 00:33:32,640 But every time I see a young fellow like you... 289 00:33:32,710 --> 00:33:35,645 standing on the side of the road, I think of my younger days. 290 00:33:35,713 --> 00:33:37,271 I appreciate it. 291 00:33:37,882 --> 00:33:39,850 Yeah. Where you headed, son? 292 00:33:40,985 --> 00:33:43,647 Central Maine General Hospital down in Lewiston. 293 00:33:43,721 --> 00:33:46,155 -Yeah. -My mother had a stroke. 294 00:33:47,792 --> 00:33:49,623 I'm sorry to hear that. 295 00:33:50,428 --> 00:33:53,056 -They think she'll be okay. -Yeah. 296 00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:57,661 Stroke's what claimed my Allie, not four years back. 297 00:33:58,369 --> 00:34:01,395 She just started babbling stuff, not making a lick of sense. 298 00:34:01,472 --> 00:34:04,532 After a while she just sort of petered out, you know. 299 00:34:05,576 --> 00:34:07,339 I miss her terrible. 300 00:34:08,679 --> 00:34:12,513 On long drives, I can still see her face sometimes... 301 00:34:14,685 --> 00:34:16,812 sitting right there where you are. 302 00:34:23,728 --> 00:34:25,127 Damn! 303 00:34:26,898 --> 00:34:31,164 You know, I'd take you all the way, but I promised my brother Ralph... 304 00:34:31,302 --> 00:34:34,328 that I'd take him over to that nursing home in Gates. 305 00:34:34,505 --> 00:34:37,906 His wife's up there, she's got that forgetting disease... 306 00:34:37,975 --> 00:34:40,705 what do you call it, Anderson's or whatever it is. 307 00:34:40,778 --> 00:34:44,077 -Alzheimer's. -Alzheimer's, yeah. That's the fellow. 308 00:34:45,550 --> 00:34:48,644 Still, I suppose I could take you all the way. 309 00:34:49,053 --> 00:34:51,783 Don't let him. There's something wrong with him. 310 00:34:55,193 --> 00:34:59,596 You don't have to do that. I can get a ride from Gates easy. 311 00:35:01,032 --> 00:35:03,330 Damn, damn truss! 312 00:35:06,504 --> 00:35:08,631 Damn rupture! You know, pardon my French... 313 00:35:08,706 --> 00:35:11,402 but if you stick around this old world long enough... 314 00:35:11,476 --> 00:35:14,741 after a while all your works start falling apart, you know. 315 00:35:14,879 --> 00:35:17,575 It just seems like the longer you live... 316 00:35:17,648 --> 00:35:20,481 the more God wants to kick you in the ass. 317 00:35:21,519 --> 00:35:26,081 Still, it's good that you dropped everything to go see your mom the way you're doing. 318 00:35:27,125 --> 00:35:28,956 She's a good mom. 319 00:35:30,128 --> 00:35:31,527 Okay, Mrs. Parker. 320 00:35:33,498 --> 00:35:35,693 Well. This must be little Al. 321 00:35:36,701 --> 00:35:38,430 Alan. Who are you? 322 00:35:39,270 --> 00:35:41,761 This is Mr. Dalrymple from the ADC. 323 00:35:42,974 --> 00:35:45,841 I think I have everything I need for now, Mrs. Parker. 324 00:35:45,910 --> 00:35:47,502 -Good. We'll be in touch. -Thank you. 325 00:35:47,578 --> 00:35:50,479 -Thanks for the coffee and cookies. -You're welcome. 326 00:35:51,215 --> 00:35:53,775 -Son. -Goodbye! 327 00:35:55,820 --> 00:35:58,755 -What's ADC? -He says it's Aid to Dependent Children... 328 00:35:58,823 --> 00:36:01,758 but I think it's Awful Damn Crapheads. 329 00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:04,560 Gotta pucker up and smooch his white heinie... 330 00:36:04,629 --> 00:36:09,066 just to make sure he writes a good report, so we can get an extra $50 a month. 331 00:36:09,233 --> 00:36:11,724 -What? -"Awful Damn Crapheads"? 332 00:36:17,108 --> 00:36:19,872 It's just you and me against the world, Al. 333 00:36:28,619 --> 00:36:29,677 Mom? 334 00:36:55,813 --> 00:36:57,610 It got so my Allie... 335 00:36:58,916 --> 00:37:01,476 didn't even know her own name. 336 00:37:02,420 --> 00:37:06,220 She had that look in her eye, like she's saying, "Let me out of here." 337 00:37:07,158 --> 00:37:10,924 I mean, if she could think of the words to say. You know what I mean? 338 00:37:18,836 --> 00:37:19,894 Mom? 339 00:37:22,740 --> 00:37:24,605 There's nothing we can really do for her. 340 00:37:24,675 --> 00:37:28,008 She's going to need someone to care for her for the rest of her life. 341 00:37:28,079 --> 00:37:30,980 That's your job, which means quitting school, of course... 342 00:37:31,048 --> 00:37:33,482 and any semblance of a life that you may have had. 343 00:37:35,886 --> 00:37:39,378 Yeah. I know what you mean. 344 00:37:44,528 --> 00:37:47,861 Look at that. Look at that harvest moon, son. 345 00:37:48,232 --> 00:37:49,961 Ain't she a corker? 346 00:37:50,334 --> 00:37:52,564 Make a wish on it, boy! 347 00:37:53,638 --> 00:37:56,732 I wish my mom knows me when I walk into her room. 348 00:37:56,807 --> 00:37:59,435 That her eyes would light up and she'd say my name. 349 00:37:59,510 --> 00:38:02,138 I wouldn't fuck with wishes if I were you. 350 00:38:02,380 --> 00:38:04,507 Remember The Monkey's Paw? 351 00:38:05,850 --> 00:38:07,875 I wish my Allie was here. 352 00:38:29,206 --> 00:38:32,607 Oh, to hell with Ralph. 353 00:38:33,444 --> 00:38:36,607 Why don't I just take you right on down to Lewiston with me, son? 354 00:38:36,681 --> 00:38:40,515 Just take you right on down there with me. What would you say? 355 00:38:41,285 --> 00:38:44,777 Don't do it! It's another 20 miles of the stink of piss... 356 00:38:44,922 --> 00:38:48,790 and weaving across lanes till we get hit head on by some Mack truck! 357 00:38:48,859 --> 00:38:51,089 He's dying, man! Can't you smell it? 358 00:38:51,228 --> 00:38:54,197 -What do you say, son? -No, that's okay. 359 00:38:54,899 --> 00:38:58,767 You take care of your brother. He needs you as much as my mom needs me. 360 00:38:58,903 --> 00:39:03,101 To hell with Ralph! To hell with him! I'll take you right to the hospital door... 361 00:39:03,174 --> 00:39:05,642 even though we never met before. What do you say, son? 362 00:39:05,710 --> 00:39:08,474 What do you say? I'll take you right there! 363 00:39:08,546 --> 00:39:10,104 No, it's okay. 364 00:39:13,818 --> 00:39:17,379 Thanks. I can go out that way. I can get a ride in no time. 365 00:39:18,622 --> 00:39:22,183 Yeah, best you do that. 366 00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:23,918 Get a ride outside of town. 367 00:39:23,994 --> 00:39:27,020 Nobody would give you a ride inside town, you know. 368 00:39:27,298 --> 00:39:28,390 Okay. 369 00:39:28,566 --> 00:39:31,535 You sure, now? A bird in the hand.... 370 00:39:31,602 --> 00:39:34,127 I'll be okay. Thank you. 371 00:39:34,872 --> 00:39:36,362 Any time, son. 372 00:39:38,709 --> 00:39:40,506 My wife Allie.... 373 00:39:41,412 --> 00:39:42,811 What's that? 374 00:40:31,162 --> 00:40:33,255 What's the matter with you? 375 00:40:33,898 --> 00:40:37,857 It was just a sad old man with leaky plumbing in a sad old car. 376 00:40:38,602 --> 00:40:40,627 There was nobody in there with him. 377 00:40:40,704 --> 00:40:43,332 It was just a reflection or something. 378 00:40:44,375 --> 00:40:46,570 What the hell were you so afraid of? 379 00:40:46,744 --> 00:40:49,736 You were afraid you might catch what he's got. 380 00:40:50,514 --> 00:40:52,948 Sometimes it's right to be afraid. 381 00:40:53,551 --> 00:40:55,519 I'm not afraid of death. 382 00:40:55,853 --> 00:40:57,650 Oh, yeah, that's right. 383 00:40:58,789 --> 00:41:01,087 You're the fucking Prince of Darkness. 384 00:41:16,640 --> 00:41:18,232 Here we go. 385 00:41:20,511 --> 00:41:22,172 Get a job, faggot! 386 00:41:23,047 --> 00:41:24,514 Hey, fuck you! 387 00:41:30,488 --> 00:41:32,479 Oh, shit! 388 00:42:45,596 --> 00:42:46,995 There he is! 389 00:46:31,789 --> 00:46:32,949 Pussy. 390 00:46:57,748 --> 00:47:00,581 Go on! Go home! 391 00:47:02,486 --> 00:47:04,317 Go on, go! Get! Go! 392 00:47:49,466 --> 00:47:50,694 Jesus. 393 00:48:16,526 --> 00:48:19,051 Don't you wanna see me before I die? 394 00:48:20,631 --> 00:48:22,326 Of course I do, Mom. 395 00:48:22,966 --> 00:48:25,560 Then why do you keep turning down rides? 396 00:48:27,104 --> 00:48:30,562 Fun is fun and done is done. 397 00:48:32,576 --> 00:48:34,237 Don't you love me? 398 00:49:25,929 --> 00:49:27,089 Freezing. 399 00:49:54,691 --> 00:49:57,421 -Look how high we are. -Why did we do this? 400 00:50:21,318 --> 00:50:24,116 -Mom, let's go. -What? 401 00:50:25,455 --> 00:50:27,082 I just want to go. 402 00:50:27,591 --> 00:50:30,685 Al, you've been bugging me all weekend to ride the Bullet. 403 00:50:30,761 --> 00:50:32,991 I know. I just wanna go. 404 00:50:33,363 --> 00:50:35,923 If you're gonna make me wait in the freezing cold... 405 00:50:35,999 --> 00:50:39,867 -you're going to go on the goddamned ride! -I changed my mind. I can't. 406 00:50:40,504 --> 00:50:43,029 That's it. That's the last time, buddy boy! 407 00:50:43,240 --> 00:50:45,538 I've had it with your nonsense! 408 00:52:20,871 --> 00:52:22,532 "George Staub." 409 00:52:24,574 --> 00:52:27,407 Jesus, he died two years ago today. 410 00:52:29,279 --> 00:52:31,975 Yeah, but he was born on your birthday. 411 00:52:34,951 --> 00:52:37,852 -"Fun is fun." -And done is done. 412 00:52:39,556 --> 00:52:41,114 Oh, shit. 413 00:52:42,392 --> 00:52:43,859 Mom's dead. 414 00:52:55,472 --> 00:52:57,667 We're saving a place for you! 415 00:53:09,119 --> 00:53:10,848 That didn't happen. 416 00:53:11,254 --> 00:53:14,951 You're in a graveyard, on your way to see your mom in the hospital. 417 00:53:15,525 --> 00:53:17,789 You're riding with every maniac on the road. 418 00:53:17,861 --> 00:53:20,227 You think you're in a horror movie, but you're not. 419 00:53:20,297 --> 00:53:23,232 You're just trying to get home to see Mom. 420 00:53:24,701 --> 00:53:27,499 If you just walk out of here now without looking back... 421 00:53:27,571 --> 00:53:30,631 you can go on believing that for the rest of your life. 422 00:53:32,075 --> 00:53:33,440 Fuck that. 423 00:53:36,968 --> 00:53:38,968 Well Begun Too Soon Done 424 00:53:39,883 --> 00:53:41,874 You know that's not what it said. 425 00:53:41,952 --> 00:53:43,317 I just read it wrong. 426 00:53:43,386 --> 00:53:45,786 Bullshit. It said, "Fun is fun and done is done." 427 00:53:45,855 --> 00:53:47,755 -Mom's dead. -No. 428 00:54:13,283 --> 00:54:16,218 -Thanks for the ride. -Not a problem. 429 00:54:22,425 --> 00:54:24,825 -Headed up to the city? -Sure am. 430 00:54:25,495 --> 00:54:27,019 Cool. Me, too. 431 00:54:31,935 --> 00:54:34,631 Maybe we should have taken another car. 432 00:54:35,605 --> 00:54:38,699 -What are you doing up in the city? -Don't tell him. 433 00:54:38,908 --> 00:54:41,604 There's something's wrong here. Don't tell him. 434 00:54:41,678 --> 00:54:45,739 My brother's getting married. I'm gonna be his best man. 435 00:54:46,449 --> 00:54:50,408 Rehearsal's tomorrow, plus a stag party after. 436 00:54:51,054 --> 00:54:52,214 Yeah? 437 00:54:53,089 --> 00:54:56,024 Your brother's getting married. That's good. 438 00:55:00,463 --> 00:55:03,591 -What's your name? -Lie! 439 00:55:04,401 --> 00:55:07,336 Hector. Hector Passmore. 440 00:55:10,240 --> 00:55:14,074 There's something really wrong here. You're never gonna make it to Lewiston. 441 00:55:14,144 --> 00:55:16,908 Mom's dead. You're never gonna make it home. 442 00:55:17,113 --> 00:55:18,808 And what's that awful smell? 443 00:55:18,882 --> 00:55:21,851 Bet you got a lot of shit for that, back in school? 444 00:55:22,852 --> 00:55:24,046 What? 445 00:55:24,220 --> 00:55:27,018 Name like that. Hector Passmore. 446 00:55:27,424 --> 00:55:29,119 Yeah, I guess so. 447 00:55:30,060 --> 00:55:32,494 Shit, man. I'd have changed it. 448 00:55:38,068 --> 00:55:40,059 Nice to meet you, Hector. 449 00:55:41,104 --> 00:55:42,594 Name's George. 450 00:55:44,474 --> 00:55:46,032 George Staub. 451 00:55:49,279 --> 00:55:52,771 Formaldehyde! That's the smell! The son of a bitch is dead! 452 00:55:56,219 --> 00:55:57,880 The dead travel fast. 453 00:56:04,761 --> 00:56:06,888 I can't let him know I know. 454 00:56:08,331 --> 00:56:11,129 I dig this song, man. I really dig this song. 455 00:56:11,768 --> 00:56:15,204 Why didn't I go with the old guy in the truss? What was I so afraid of? 456 00:56:15,338 --> 00:56:16,896 The dead travel fast. 457 00:56:16,973 --> 00:56:19,567 That old fart never moved more than 45. 458 00:56:22,879 --> 00:56:25,973 So, there's nothing like a wedding. 459 00:56:27,016 --> 00:56:31,077 Yeah. Everyone should do it at least twice. 460 00:56:31,287 --> 00:56:34,120 Easy! You can't let him know you know! 461 00:56:35,425 --> 00:56:40,158 At least twice! Yeah, sounds like my whole fucking family! 462 00:56:40,697 --> 00:56:42,221 Yeah, mine, too. 463 00:56:43,666 --> 00:56:47,397 -There's really nothing like a funeral, right? -Wedding. 464 00:56:48,638 --> 00:56:52,096 -What? -Shit. You said "funeral"! 465 00:56:53,276 --> 00:56:55,369 He knows! 466 00:56:58,515 --> 00:57:01,780 God, what's under that hat? 467 00:57:15,365 --> 00:57:16,593 Wedding. 468 00:57:17,467 --> 00:57:19,128 You said "funeral." 469 00:57:22,172 --> 00:57:23,400 Wedding. 470 00:57:23,907 --> 00:57:25,772 Wedding is what I meant to say. 471 00:57:25,842 --> 00:57:28,743 We always say what we mean to say, Hector. 472 00:57:29,245 --> 00:57:31,110 That's what I think. 473 00:57:31,548 --> 00:57:33,379 Me and Sigmund Freud. 474 00:57:35,251 --> 00:57:36,684 He's fucking with you, man. 475 00:57:36,753 --> 00:57:39,916 He knows you saw his grave. He knows you know he's dead. 476 00:57:53,636 --> 00:57:55,331 Feel all right? 477 00:57:56,539 --> 00:57:57,733 Yeah. 478 00:57:58,575 --> 00:58:02,067 -You sure? -I'm just a little carsick, I guess. 479 00:58:03,246 --> 00:58:04,713 I think you should let me out. 480 00:58:04,781 --> 00:58:08,512 Maybe if I get a little fresh air, my stomach will settle down. 481 00:58:09,152 --> 00:58:10,744 Someone else will come along. 482 00:58:10,820 --> 00:58:13,288 Oh, no, I can't let you out here. 483 00:58:14,057 --> 00:58:16,855 In the middle of nowhere? All alone? 484 00:58:21,764 --> 00:58:23,789 Could be hours before someone came along... 485 00:58:23,867 --> 00:58:26,995 and even if they did, they might not pick you up. 486 00:58:27,070 --> 00:58:29,402 No way I'm letting you out here. 487 00:58:31,341 --> 00:58:33,707 Crack your window a little. 488 00:58:35,178 --> 00:58:37,578 I know it doesn't smell so great in here. 489 00:58:37,647 --> 00:58:41,879 Hung up one of those air fresheners, but those things don't work worth a shit. 490 00:58:42,986 --> 00:58:44,214 Of course... 491 00:58:44,420 --> 00:58:47,583 some smells are harder to get rid of than others. 492 00:58:52,996 --> 00:58:55,191 Reminds me of that story... 493 00:58:56,666 --> 00:59:00,033 about that kid that buys a brand-new Cadillac for $750. 494 00:59:00,103 --> 00:59:02,071 You heard that story? 495 00:59:02,572 --> 00:59:04,836 I think everybody's heard that story. 496 00:59:07,877 --> 00:59:09,742 Kid wants to buy a car. 497 00:59:10,813 --> 00:59:13,941 Sees a brand-new Caddy sitting out in front of this guy's house. 498 00:59:14,017 --> 00:59:15,780 "For sale by owner. " 499 00:59:16,686 --> 00:59:19,450 Kid knows he can't afford no Cadillac car. 500 00:59:19,689 --> 00:59:22,123 Can't get within a shout of a Caddy... 501 00:59:22,225 --> 00:59:24,318 but he's curious, you know? 502 00:59:25,395 --> 00:59:27,727 How much does something like this go for? 503 00:59:27,797 --> 00:59:31,927 Kid, this is your lucky day. $750 and you can drive it away. 504 00:59:32,235 --> 00:59:36,262 Yeah, right. That's about as funny as a screen door in a submarine. 505 00:59:36,539 --> 00:59:39,804 No joke, kid. Pony up the cash and she's yours. 506 00:59:40,476 --> 00:59:43,502 Hell, I'll even take a check. You've got an honest face. 507 00:59:43,580 --> 00:59:45,741 I heard it was a Thunderbird. 508 00:59:46,649 --> 00:59:48,776 T-Bird, Caddy, same shit. 509 00:59:49,319 --> 00:59:50,616 It's a story. 510 00:59:51,087 --> 00:59:53,146 I may only be 17, but I'm no idiot. 511 00:59:53,222 --> 00:59:55,656 Nobody sells a car like this for $750. 512 00:59:56,292 --> 00:59:58,487 I don't want her anymore, son. 513 00:59:59,829 --> 01:00:01,228 She smells. 514 01:00:01,998 --> 01:00:04,228 You can't get a smell like that out. 515 01:00:04,467 --> 01:00:08,028 I've tried everything you can think of, and some you can't. 516 01:00:09,939 --> 01:00:11,270 You see.... 517 01:00:12,241 --> 01:00:14,141 I was on a business trip. 518 01:00:14,611 --> 01:00:16,943 Gone a couple, three weeks. 519 01:00:36,432 --> 01:00:37,660 God! 520 01:00:46,109 --> 01:00:49,704 She must have been dead practically the whole time he'd been gone. 521 01:00:50,346 --> 01:00:53,338 I don't know if it was a suicide or a heart attack or what. 522 01:00:53,416 --> 01:00:55,543 She's all bloated up... 523 01:00:55,652 --> 01:00:58,553 and the car, it's filled with that smell... 524 01:00:58,688 --> 01:01:01,213 and all he wanted to do was sell it. 525 01:01:01,524 --> 01:01:03,287 That's some story. 526 01:01:04,260 --> 01:01:06,558 Why wouldn't he just call home? 527 01:01:06,696 --> 01:01:07,822 What? 528 01:01:08,464 --> 01:01:10,329 He's gone for weeks on a business trip... 529 01:01:10,400 --> 01:01:12,595 he doesn't call home to see how his wife's doing? 530 01:01:12,669 --> 01:01:15,160 That's sort of beside the point, ain't it? 531 01:01:15,371 --> 01:01:18,101 I mean, what a bargain! That's the point. 532 01:01:19,342 --> 01:01:20,570 Who wouldn't be tempted? 533 01:01:20,643 --> 01:01:23,544 Probably drive the fucking car with the windows down, right? 534 01:01:23,613 --> 01:01:26,047 It's a story. Fiction. 535 01:01:26,749 --> 01:01:29,547 I thought of it because of the smell in this car. 536 01:01:29,952 --> 01:01:31,544 Which is a fact. 537 01:01:37,193 --> 01:01:39,718 Check out this button. Thrill Village. 538 01:01:41,431 --> 01:01:43,331 That's where I was today. 539 01:01:43,733 --> 01:01:46,759 My girlfriend was gonna go, but called and said she was sick. 540 01:01:46,836 --> 01:01:50,135 You see, she gets these bad cramps when she's O.T.R. 541 01:01:50,206 --> 01:01:51,400 It's too bad... 542 01:01:51,474 --> 01:01:53,408 but what's the alternative? 543 01:01:53,543 --> 01:01:56,478 No rag at all? Then we'd both be in trouble. 544 01:01:59,182 --> 01:02:00,774 So I went alone. 545 01:02:02,318 --> 01:02:03,842 You ever been to Thrill Village? 546 01:02:06,622 --> 01:02:07,714 Once. 547 01:02:07,790 --> 01:02:09,018 When I was 12. 548 01:02:09,759 --> 01:02:13,559 You didn't go alone, did you? Not if you were 12, you didn't. 549 01:02:14,030 --> 01:02:17,796 You didn't tell him that! Not out loud! He's fucking with you. 550 01:02:17,900 --> 01:02:21,700 You gotta just open the door, tuck your head under your arms and jump! 551 01:02:21,804 --> 01:02:25,467 He'd only reach over and grab me and pull me right back in with him. 552 01:02:27,310 --> 01:02:29,107 Yeah, my dad took me. 553 01:02:29,979 --> 01:02:31,241 Your dad? 554 01:02:34,984 --> 01:02:38,784 Did you ride the Bullet? I rode that fucker four times! 555 01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:43,988 Did you ride the Bullet, Alan? 556 01:02:45,061 --> 01:02:47,052 You told him your name was Hector! 557 01:02:47,130 --> 01:02:48,961 Don't let him know you know. 558 01:02:52,001 --> 01:02:55,095 -Yeah, I rode the Bullet. -No. 559 01:02:59,509 --> 01:03:01,306 You didn't ride the Bullet. 560 01:03:03,179 --> 01:03:05,613 I mean, you got in line and everything... 561 01:03:05,915 --> 01:03:09,908 but you were with your mom, not your dad. Remember? 562 01:03:10,219 --> 01:03:11,777 The line was long... 563 01:03:11,854 --> 01:03:14,721 your mom didn't wanna wait out there in the cold. 564 01:03:14,957 --> 01:03:17,050 But you kept hassling her all day. 565 01:03:17,126 --> 01:03:20,892 And when you finally got to the head of the line what happened, Alan? 566 01:03:21,764 --> 01:03:24,528 You chickened out, didn't you? Didn't you? 567 01:03:26,903 --> 01:03:27,961 Yes. 568 01:03:31,941 --> 01:03:33,932 When we got close... 569 01:03:35,077 --> 01:03:37,272 and I saw how high it was... 570 01:03:39,182 --> 01:03:41,412 how it turned over the top... 571 01:03:42,819 --> 01:03:45,379 how they screamed when it came down... 572 01:03:48,257 --> 01:03:49,849 I chickened out. 573 01:03:52,161 --> 01:03:53,628 And she swatted me. 574 01:03:55,731 --> 01:03:58,529 She wouldn't talk to me all the way home. 575 01:03:59,902 --> 01:04:01,870 I never rode the Bullet. 576 01:04:03,372 --> 01:04:04,839 Until now. 577 01:04:07,743 --> 01:04:11,042 I stopped by the state line to get some beers on my way home. 578 01:04:11,113 --> 01:04:14,082 I was gonna give my girlfriend this button as a joke. 579 01:04:15,885 --> 01:04:18,285 But you probably know what happened then. 580 01:05:36,232 --> 01:05:39,633 Every Halloween, when the moon is full and the wind is high... 581 01:05:39,735 --> 01:05:42,499 you might see George Staub on Old Ridge Road... 582 01:05:42,972 --> 01:05:45,805 Iooking for souls. Like yours! 583 01:05:52,581 --> 01:05:54,606 There's nothing like a funeral, huh? 584 01:05:54,684 --> 01:05:56,413 Isn't that what you said? 585 01:05:57,386 --> 01:05:59,251 Let me out. Please. 586 01:06:00,656 --> 01:06:02,180 Do you know who I am? 587 01:06:03,859 --> 01:06:05,486 You're a ghost. 588 01:06:08,197 --> 01:06:10,791 Come on. You can do better than that. 589 01:06:11,167 --> 01:06:13,260 Casper is a fucking ghost. 590 01:06:14,370 --> 01:06:18,101 Do I float in the air? Can you see through me? 591 01:06:19,809 --> 01:06:21,538 I'm a kind of messenger... 592 01:06:22,078 --> 01:06:24,603 fucking Western Union from beyond the grave. 593 01:06:25,781 --> 01:06:29,148 Guys like me come out whenever the circumstances are right... 594 01:06:29,452 --> 01:06:31,977 because we like to play with guys like you. 595 01:06:32,121 --> 01:06:34,453 Because you are one of us... 596 01:06:36,392 --> 01:06:37,916 the walking dead. 597 01:06:40,129 --> 01:06:43,155 Surgeon did good work. He must have liked you. 598 01:06:43,733 --> 01:06:46,725 After all, it is your legacy, isn't it? 599 01:06:48,204 --> 01:06:50,138 -What do you mean? -You know. 600 01:06:50,940 --> 01:06:52,874 Since your dad killed himself. 601 01:06:53,743 --> 01:06:57,839 Do you know how many children of suicides commit suicide themselves? 602 01:06:58,681 --> 01:07:00,376 It's your heritage, man. 603 01:07:01,117 --> 01:07:05,019 My father didn't commit suicide. He was killed in a car accident. 604 01:07:05,588 --> 01:07:08,318 -Is that what she told you? -It's what happened! 605 01:07:08,524 --> 01:07:09,855 No, Alan. 606 01:07:11,961 --> 01:07:14,191 Let me tell you what really happened. 607 01:07:39,889 --> 01:07:40,878 Splat! 608 01:07:41,323 --> 01:07:43,314 He painted Miss November with his brains. 609 01:07:43,392 --> 01:07:45,553 That's bullshit! 610 01:07:46,362 --> 01:07:49,525 Bullshit? You know it's not. 611 01:07:53,736 --> 01:07:55,101 You know what I think? 612 01:07:55,171 --> 01:07:57,662 I think whoever runs things likes to be entertained. 613 01:07:57,740 --> 01:08:00,470 He always wants to see if you're happy with what you got... 614 01:08:00,543 --> 01:08:03,569 or if he can talk you into what's behind curtain number two. 615 01:08:03,646 --> 01:08:05,978 But everything has to be just right. 616 01:08:06,048 --> 01:08:07,777 And tonight it was. 617 01:08:07,917 --> 01:08:11,819 You out there all by yourself, needing a ride in the night... 618 01:08:12,455 --> 01:08:15,253 in the dark, with your fucking wrist. 619 01:08:15,858 --> 01:08:17,155 And your dad. 620 01:08:17,226 --> 01:08:18,989 Your mother dying in the hospital. 621 01:08:19,061 --> 01:08:20,653 She's not dying! 622 01:08:21,197 --> 01:08:23,165 Yeah, right. Not yet. 623 01:08:24,834 --> 01:08:29,100 None of this would've happened if I'd stayed with the old man in the truck, would it? 624 01:08:29,171 --> 01:08:30,968 That's hard to say. 625 01:08:31,607 --> 01:08:33,507 Maybe he was dead, too. 626 01:08:35,778 --> 01:08:37,609 There's no time to talk about that. 627 01:08:37,680 --> 01:08:40,581 In five miles we're going to start seeing houses again. 628 01:08:40,649 --> 01:08:43,618 A few miles past that is the Lewiston city line. 629 01:08:43,686 --> 01:08:46,177 Which means you have to decide now. 630 01:08:47,389 --> 01:08:48,788 Decide what? 631 01:08:49,258 --> 01:08:52,421 Who rides the Bullet and who stays on the ground. 632 01:08:53,162 --> 01:08:54,993 You or your mother. 633 01:08:55,965 --> 01:08:59,366 -What? -I'm taking one of you with me, Al. 634 01:09:00,803 --> 01:09:03,533 Who's it going be? You or your mom? 635 01:09:04,974 --> 01:09:08,375 -What are you talking about? -It's time for one of you to die! 636 01:09:09,812 --> 01:09:12,542 The choice is yours. It's all up to you. 637 01:09:14,984 --> 01:09:17,043 This shit isn't funny, man. 638 01:09:18,187 --> 01:09:19,518 I'm serious. 639 01:09:19,588 --> 01:09:23,080 I'm as serious as cancer. You've got a choice to make. 640 01:09:23,459 --> 01:09:24,926 You or Mommy. 641 01:09:25,294 --> 01:09:27,387 So put on your thinking cap. 642 01:09:28,731 --> 01:09:29,925 Hi. 643 01:09:31,200 --> 01:09:33,760 We had peach pie, so I saved you a slice. 644 01:09:45,080 --> 01:09:46,775 Come here, hon. 645 01:09:47,550 --> 01:09:50,178 It's you and me against the world, Al. 646 01:09:52,988 --> 01:09:54,785 What do you say, Al? 647 01:09:56,358 --> 01:09:59,816 -Time's a-wasting. -I can't decide something like that. 648 01:09:59,895 --> 01:10:02,659 -It's not fair to ask me. -I know. 649 01:10:04,099 --> 01:10:05,760 They all say that. 650 01:10:06,669 --> 01:10:10,196 But if you don't decide by the time we get to that first light... 651 01:10:10,272 --> 01:10:12,638 I'll just have to take you both. 652 01:10:12,908 --> 01:10:14,273 Take us where? 653 01:10:14,343 --> 01:10:17,244 Come on, that's an easy one. 654 01:10:18,047 --> 01:10:19,639 This is your meat, Al. 655 01:10:19,715 --> 01:10:22,650 Life obviously doesn't mean that much to you. 656 01:10:23,385 --> 01:10:25,683 You just love death, don't you? 657 01:10:25,921 --> 01:10:30,187 The romance, the mystery, the dark fucking beauty of it. 658 01:10:30,726 --> 01:10:33,490 What's the big deal? People die every day. 659 01:10:33,562 --> 01:10:35,359 A shitload of people. 660 01:10:36,632 --> 01:10:38,259 It is a big deal. 661 01:10:38,367 --> 01:10:39,834 I see. 662 01:10:39,902 --> 01:10:43,133 Have we had a little change of heart, drama boy? 663 01:10:43,672 --> 01:10:46,766 What was that, just a cry for help, O Prince of Darkness? 664 01:10:46,842 --> 01:10:49,572 -No! -What the fuck were you thinking? 665 01:10:49,845 --> 01:10:51,574 What's more valuable than your life... 666 01:10:51,647 --> 01:10:54,207 all that there is in your future, hell, right now? 667 01:10:54,283 --> 01:10:56,308 Come on, just give mom the boot. 668 01:10:56,385 --> 01:10:58,853 She's already got diabetes, smokes like a chimney. 669 01:10:58,921 --> 01:11:02,220 -She doesn't have long left anyway. -This is bullshit! 670 01:11:02,358 --> 01:11:04,553 Yeah, they all say that, too. 671 01:11:07,329 --> 01:11:11,698 You know, I'd just as soon take two as one. It's more points for me. 672 01:11:13,369 --> 01:11:17,203 Go ahead, Alan, you're an artist. Paint the walls, like I did. 673 01:11:22,878 --> 01:11:25,676 Come on, Al. We're running out of wilderness. 674 01:11:25,748 --> 01:11:27,375 What do you say? 675 01:11:27,783 --> 01:11:29,614 It's time to choose. 676 01:11:30,286 --> 01:11:34,279 -I'm not going to do that. -Okay. Then I'll do it for you. 677 01:11:35,224 --> 01:11:37,158 No. 678 01:11:48,637 --> 01:11:50,969 This isn't a request, Al baby! 679 01:11:51,373 --> 01:11:53,364 You're here for a reason. 680 01:11:53,442 --> 01:11:56,172 It's not fair. You can't make me choose. 681 01:11:56,312 --> 01:11:58,837 Hey, man, I didn't even have a choice. 682 01:11:59,181 --> 01:12:00,478 You do. 683 01:12:00,749 --> 01:12:02,808 I'd take it if I were you. 684 01:12:03,085 --> 01:12:04,518 I'm only 21. 685 01:12:04,586 --> 01:12:09,182 I've got a whole life in front of me. 48 is old. She's sick, real sick. 686 01:12:09,558 --> 01:12:11,492 And it is only a matter of time. 687 01:12:11,560 --> 01:12:13,255 Your mom worked her ass off for you. 688 01:12:13,329 --> 01:12:16,423 All those shit jobs to put money away so you could go to school. 689 01:12:16,498 --> 01:12:18,227 Hell, so you could even eat. 690 01:12:18,300 --> 01:12:20,393 Who the fuck are you anyway? 691 01:12:20,803 --> 01:12:24,364 The angel on his right shoulder or the devil on his left? 692 01:12:24,606 --> 01:12:26,540 Then shut the fuck up! 693 01:12:27,976 --> 01:12:31,605 Who's it going to be, Al? You or Mommy? Or both? 694 01:12:31,847 --> 01:12:33,041 No! 695 01:13:54,730 --> 01:13:57,221 They're coming to get you, Barbara. 696 01:16:12,367 --> 01:16:15,564 Just settle back and enjoy the ride, Son. 697 01:16:15,938 --> 01:16:19,669 Why didn't you come, Al? Why did you let me die all alone? 698 01:16:20,609 --> 01:16:23,134 We never quite made it to Toronto, man! 699 01:17:31,079 --> 01:17:32,137 Mom? 700 01:17:44,893 --> 01:17:47,623 -Is that you? -Of course it's me. 701 01:17:48,664 --> 01:17:50,393 He brought me here. 702 01:17:57,873 --> 01:17:59,898 You have to choose, honey. 703 01:18:01,176 --> 01:18:03,303 You have to make the choice. 704 01:18:04,046 --> 01:18:05,946 I can't do that, Mom. 705 01:18:08,150 --> 01:18:09,583 You have to. 706 01:18:12,888 --> 01:18:15,015 What's wrong with your hand? 707 01:18:19,227 --> 01:18:22,754 You ripped the fucking skin off of it, that's what's wrong! 708 01:18:25,133 --> 01:18:29,126 You can't run away, Alan. And you can't kill what's already dead. 709 01:18:29,237 --> 01:18:32,297 Now quit pissing me off and make your decision! 710 01:18:51,226 --> 01:18:54,718 Hurry, Al. Speed it up. That's the first house. 711 01:18:54,830 --> 01:18:58,095 If you've got something to tell me, you better tell me now. 712 01:18:58,233 --> 01:19:01,396 How do you choose? How the hell do you choose? 713 01:19:03,338 --> 01:19:05,636 I've had it with your nonsense! 714 01:19:06,875 --> 01:19:09,867 Just you and me against the world, Al. 715 01:19:10,612 --> 01:19:13,604 I honestly don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you. 716 01:19:14,616 --> 01:19:16,481 Make me proud, okay? 717 01:19:24,493 --> 01:19:26,290 Happy birthday! 718 01:19:27,295 --> 01:19:29,422 Now, Al. Now! 719 01:19:31,533 --> 01:19:33,797 Is it going to be your mother or you? 720 01:19:36,471 --> 01:19:38,029 Now, Al! 721 01:19:39,641 --> 01:19:42,303 Take her! Take my Mom, don't take me! 722 01:19:46,081 --> 01:19:48,072 Pleasant dreams, Al. 723 01:20:45,207 --> 01:20:47,175 Where are you headed, son? 724 01:20:47,709 --> 01:20:50,803 -Lewiston. -That works for both of us. Come on. 725 01:20:51,046 --> 01:20:52,479 Thank you. 726 01:21:13,768 --> 01:21:16,737 Good luck, son. I hope your mom's on the mend. 727 01:21:18,039 --> 01:21:19,267 Thanks. 728 01:21:19,941 --> 01:21:23,502 Did you ride the Bullet? I rode that fucker four times. 729 01:21:25,080 --> 01:21:28,447 You all right, son? You come over all shivery. 730 01:21:30,752 --> 01:21:32,014 I'm okay. 731 01:21:33,855 --> 01:21:35,322 Thanks again. 732 01:22:07,022 --> 01:22:09,752 Hi, I'm here to see Jean Parker. 733 01:22:10,225 --> 01:22:12,853 I'm sorry, visiting hours end at 9:00. 734 01:22:13,094 --> 01:22:15,927 She's my mother. She had a stroke. 735 01:22:16,398 --> 01:22:19,458 I hitchhiked all the way from Orono to see her. 736 01:22:20,802 --> 01:22:24,533 We can make the occasional exception for immediate family, I think. 737 01:22:24,773 --> 01:22:26,070 Thank you. 738 01:22:26,841 --> 01:22:29,207 Let's see, that was Parker? 739 01:22:29,277 --> 01:22:31,268 Right. Jean Parker. 740 01:22:34,416 --> 01:22:36,384 Let me call Dr. Higgins. 741 01:22:45,226 --> 01:22:46,284 Okay. 742 01:22:47,595 --> 01:22:49,893 He'll be here in just a minute. 743 01:22:51,900 --> 01:22:53,265 Mr. Parker? 744 01:22:56,271 --> 01:22:59,866 I'm sorry, Alan, but your mother passed away at about 8:00. 745 01:23:01,676 --> 01:23:03,769 Let's see, that was Parker? 746 01:23:04,479 --> 01:23:06,208 Right. Jean Parker. 747 01:23:07,482 --> 01:23:09,677 I've got to call Dr. Shustek. 748 01:23:11,486 --> 01:23:13,613 -What is it? -Hi, Dr. Shustek. 749 01:23:13,688 --> 01:23:15,713 Jean Parker's son is here. 750 01:23:15,991 --> 01:23:17,083 Okay. 751 01:23:18,159 --> 01:23:20,150 Dr. Shustek will be right here. 752 01:23:21,730 --> 01:23:23,095 Mr. Parker? 753 01:23:24,799 --> 01:23:27,427 I'm not going to lie to you. Your mother is a vegetable. 754 01:23:27,502 --> 01:23:29,697 A rutabaga. A banana squash. 755 01:23:30,105 --> 01:23:32,005 She's fucked. And so are you. 756 01:23:33,408 --> 01:23:37,003 Let's see. Here she is, in 487. 757 01:23:37,379 --> 01:23:40,439 Let me call up and see if it's okay for you to come up. 758 01:23:40,548 --> 01:23:42,743 -Is she okay? -Hang on a second. 759 01:23:44,853 --> 01:23:48,516 Hi, Annie. Jean Parker's son is here. Could he come up and see her? 760 01:23:49,824 --> 01:23:53,282 Annie's just going down to check in on her. It'll just be a minute. 761 01:23:53,361 --> 01:23:54,589 Thanks. 762 01:24:07,108 --> 01:24:08,439 It's real. 763 01:24:09,778 --> 01:24:11,746 Then why isn't she dead? 764 01:24:11,913 --> 01:24:13,938 Okay, Annie. I understand. 765 01:24:14,382 --> 01:24:16,247 I will. Thanks. 766 01:24:18,319 --> 01:24:21,015 Annie says you can come up, but just for a few minutes. 767 01:24:21,089 --> 01:24:24,320 Your mother's had her evening medication, and she's a little soupy. 768 01:24:24,392 --> 01:24:25,586 Thanks. 769 01:25:26,988 --> 01:25:29,821 Mr. Parker? Hurry up, she's going. 770 01:25:30,358 --> 01:25:33,327 -Going? -No, I just meant the sedative. 771 01:25:34,129 --> 01:25:36,063 She's going to sleep, that's all I meant. 772 01:25:36,131 --> 01:25:39,567 God, I am so stupid. No, she is fine, just.... 773 01:25:40,768 --> 01:25:43,168 -You're not going to faint, are you? -No. 774 01:25:57,952 --> 01:26:00,819 I know what you did, Al! 775 01:26:12,233 --> 01:26:13,325 Alan? 776 01:26:15,270 --> 01:26:16,430 Honey? 777 01:26:29,184 --> 01:26:30,913 Now, don't you cry. 778 01:26:31,686 --> 01:26:33,313 No need for that. 779 01:26:37,358 --> 01:26:39,383 I came as soon as I heard. 780 01:26:39,694 --> 01:26:41,457 Mrs. McCurdy called. 781 01:26:42,463 --> 01:26:46,456 I told her that the weekend would be fine. 782 01:26:47,068 --> 01:26:49,628 Yeah, to hell with that. 783 01:26:52,473 --> 01:26:54,270 How did you get here? 784 01:26:55,476 --> 01:26:56,943 I hitchhiked. 785 01:26:57,645 --> 01:26:58,805 Gory. 786 01:27:02,784 --> 01:27:04,911 You have blood in your hair. 787 01:27:08,590 --> 01:27:11,423 It's nothing, Mom. I bumped my head. 788 01:27:12,293 --> 01:27:13,590 Not good. 789 01:27:14,996 --> 01:27:17,430 You have to take care of yourself. 790 01:27:18,900 --> 01:27:22,597 I think we should let her sleep now. She's had a rough day. 791 01:27:23,338 --> 01:27:24,532 I know. 792 01:27:28,643 --> 01:27:30,133 I'm going, Ma. 793 01:27:30,778 --> 01:27:33,212 I'll be back first thing tomorrow. 794 01:27:34,148 --> 01:27:36,139 You get some sleep, okay? 795 01:27:38,119 --> 01:27:40,019 Sleep. That's all I do. 796 01:27:48,196 --> 01:27:50,994 I dreamed we were at that amusement park. 797 01:27:54,736 --> 01:27:55,964 You did? 798 01:27:56,638 --> 01:27:58,367 Waiting in line... 799 01:27:59,140 --> 01:28:01,165 for the roller coaster... 800 01:28:01,809 --> 01:28:04,141 that goes way up high. 801 01:28:05,813 --> 01:28:07,474 Remember that one? 802 01:28:08,249 --> 01:28:11,412 -The Bullet. -The Bullet, yes. 803 01:28:13,454 --> 01:28:15,183 You were so scared. 804 01:28:17,992 --> 01:28:19,789 And I shouted at you. 805 01:28:22,096 --> 01:28:24,064 Shouted and swatted you. 806 01:28:25,266 --> 01:28:26,995 It's all right, Ma. 807 01:28:29,070 --> 01:28:31,163 I'm so sorry. 808 01:28:32,840 --> 01:28:34,831 That was a long time ago. 809 01:28:37,245 --> 01:28:39,213 You never got your ride. 810 01:28:40,148 --> 01:28:42,673 Mr. Parker, it really is time to go. 811 01:28:48,423 --> 01:28:50,516 I'm gonna see you tomorrow. 812 01:28:52,126 --> 01:28:54,560 -I love you. -I love you, too. 813 01:28:57,065 --> 01:28:58,327 So sorry. 814 01:30:06,834 --> 01:30:10,930 There's nothing like a brush with mortality to teach you to appreciate life. 815 01:30:11,239 --> 01:30:14,766 A little bite of death can help you grow up real quick. 816 01:30:17,178 --> 01:30:19,806 Mom got out of the hospital a few days later. 817 01:30:20,148 --> 01:30:24,414 She walked with a limp for a while. About a month later she was back at work. 818 01:30:25,953 --> 01:30:29,184 She tried to quit smoking and for a little while, she did. 819 01:30:29,390 --> 01:30:33,019 Then I came back for spring break a day early and there she was.... 820 01:30:37,165 --> 01:30:39,793 We had a couple of pretty good years after that. 821 01:30:39,867 --> 01:30:42,267 I visited her most every weekend. 822 01:30:43,171 --> 01:30:46,538 We'd play gin rummy or talk politics until all hours. 823 01:30:47,442 --> 01:30:50,206 Had a bucket-Ioad of laughs, as she liked to say. 824 01:31:03,224 --> 01:31:04,282 Mom? 825 01:31:19,173 --> 01:31:20,800 Then one night... 826 01:31:22,210 --> 01:31:24,007 she stopped laughing. 827 01:31:35,189 --> 01:31:38,818 I will never forget and always regret the choice I'd made. 828 01:31:40,962 --> 01:31:44,261 The memory of that night out on the Old Ridge Road never faded... 829 01:31:44,332 --> 01:31:46,857 and grew dreamlike, as I expected it would. 830 01:31:50,404 --> 01:31:51,928 I'm sorry, Mom. 831 01:32:11,192 --> 01:32:13,956 I can't help but think that maybe George Staub... 832 01:32:14,262 --> 01:32:15,923 if there really was a George Staub... 833 01:32:15,997 --> 01:32:18,591 just teased me with a little more time... 834 01:32:19,200 --> 01:32:20,963 a couple more years. 835 01:32:22,270 --> 01:32:24,397 But I was glad to have them. 836 01:32:25,106 --> 01:32:26,903 It unlocked my heart. 837 01:32:33,948 --> 01:32:36,280 Jessica and I got married a year later... 838 01:32:36,350 --> 01:32:38,011 but it didn't last. 839 01:32:38,085 --> 01:32:40,076 It wasn't anybody's fault. 840 01:32:40,221 --> 01:32:43,054 We tried, but nothing ever seems to last. 841 01:32:59,106 --> 01:33:02,769 The Beatles never did get together in Toronto back in 1969. 842 01:33:03,144 --> 01:33:05,374 They never got together again. 843 01:33:07,381 --> 01:33:10,839 John Lennon's life was taken by a maniac with a gun... 844 01:33:11,319 --> 01:33:14,220 George Harrison's by cigarettes and cancer. 845 01:33:15,990 --> 01:33:18,584 And I never made a living as an artist. 846 01:33:20,094 --> 01:33:22,927 But I still paint, because it's what I do. 847 01:33:26,867 --> 01:33:30,200 I miss my mom and I still think about her a lot. 848 01:33:32,173 --> 01:33:34,038 I miss that time, too. 849 01:33:34,208 --> 01:33:38,804 From the time of her stroke in 1969 to the time of her passing in 1972... 850 01:33:39,146 --> 01:33:41,137 my world changed forever. 851 01:33:41,248 --> 01:33:43,182 I think everybody's did. 852 01:33:43,718 --> 01:33:45,686 Nothing seems to last... 853 01:33:49,790 --> 01:33:50,950 but the Bullet. 854 01:33:51,025 --> 01:33:54,893 The Bullet is constant. The Bullet is always there. 855 01:33:57,798 --> 01:33:59,663 You wait in line, that's all. 856 01:33:59,734 --> 01:34:03,261 When it's your turn to ride the Bullet, maybe you ride and maybe you run. 857 01:34:03,337 --> 01:34:05,669 Either way, it comes to the same thing. 858 01:34:07,608 --> 01:34:09,735 Fun is fun and done is done. 859 01:34:13,714 --> 01:34:16,581 Nobody lives forever, but we all shine on. 860 01:34:43,511 --> 01:34:45,172 You want a ride? 861 01:34:45,312 --> 01:34:48,281 No, thanks. I think I'll walk. 862 01:34:55,189 --> 01:34:57,453 Take your button and get out of here.